Busy, busy, busy..

My computer class ran over today. They were just so excited. I had the best compliment from one of the ladies who told me after the class that she hasn't taken any classes recently due to the fact that she has a learning disability. She said I made everything quite easy to understand and made her feel quite comfortable. Kudos to me!

I will be popping in and out of work for the next week or so. Hence I will popping in and out of blogs too. Today's catatrosphe was my star sticker order didn't come in in time. Now where can I get 10,000 star stickers tonight?

Hmmm.... good day and twinkle twinkle little star.... I call it... it's mine! : P

Of course, I am Special... I have the Sandwich sticker to prove it.

Overall a very lovely Saturday. Would have been lovelier if I didn't have to work and could have lazed about all day... though possibly not. If I hadn't been at work, I would have been available to help D move. Good things out of bad.

God and I talked quite a bit this morning in the car. Well, I talked, God just listened. Mainly about the whole where is my life going bit. I reiterated the fact that all signs from him must be in bright neon colors and flashing. Though it reminds me of how much I pay attention to things normally which is a negative percentage at best. I am very good at not noticing. Hence I get pied in the fact quite a bit. Whenever it happens, it makes me wonder what else am I missing.

I had a nice chat with N today. She works in my eye doctor's office (speaking of not seeing things). She is a very nice person and we talked for a good 45 minutes on the phone. I am very thrilled to have a new friend : ) I have such a hard time finding cool people. Cool people don't live in Florida. What I want in friends is very similiar in what I want in guys. Silly and serious at the same time. Must be weird but not in a bad way. We talked about taking a class together. One of those continuing ed classes. It would be so cool to be able to hang out with someone other than myself. Though I am the coolest chick I know... maybe that's what is up with the wanderlust. It's the cool people can't live in Florida rule.

Good day and keep cool ;P

I need Feebdack...

on two different things so this should be interesting.

The first is I am going to be spending a lot of time in my car traveling to and fro next week and the week after. I am going to need traveling music. I like most everything but it needs to be something I can sing to. I tend to get a lot of soundtracks so I get a mix of everything. The next two weeks are going to be odd to say the least. I'll be at work on Monday and most of Tuesday. Then we have a training day for which I have been on the planning committee. Repeat after me... Do not volunteer for anything else right now. So the two days after it I am taking off. Only to work on Saturday and Sunday and then I am taking the first three days of May off. It's like this weird non vacation vacation : ) I'm taking the time to be with P for her procedure.

So second request... what is the best way to tell someone how their choices are affecting your life without it getting all accusatory and ugly? It is someone I really love and care about but I really don't like feeling like I am bailing them out all the time. When does one say when, when it comes to love? Sorry, channelling my inner Carrie Bradshaw for a sec.

Maybe when I get a free second I will finally figure out what I am doing with my life.

Good day and dance to your own special music (sticker above my desk)

Happy Tax Day!

Though actually any day paying tax is not a happy one. So unhappy tax day, loves. This was the first year I have actually had to pay anything. I have the feeling next year I will actually have to take mine in to get them done. I can pretty much muddle through them normally but the deductions always get me. I would like to know where my tax breaks are for my cats. If you all can take off your kids, then I should be allowed to take off my cats. I mean they are actually pretty dependent on me. Basil especially... I love that I have three levels of loving from them. Basil would sit on me all day if let, Hazel wants love every now and again and Henri wants love from afar.

Okay so Happy Easter too. I was telling Dad the other night that one of the most enduring Easter images I have is when he used to do a reenactment of the Easter story. I remember most one year he had cover a cardboard box with red paper and then covered over it again in brown paper. He then acted out the whipping that Jesus received and seeing the red between really stuck with me. I hadn't planned on going to church this year though. That doesn't mean I believe any less or contemplated the message any less. If anything, the idea of rebirth and renewal mean more this year. I am trying to figure out a renewal of me. So I plan to spend Easter contemplating that. That and eating a chocolate bunny. LOL

Oh so reminded me of a joke. This is worth of Dad's joke list. Three men died and went to heaven. Before entering Peter told them that they had answer a question before they could answer. The first man came forward and Peter asked him "What happened at Easter?". The first man didn't know. The next man came forward and Peter asked him" What happened at Easter?" The second man answered, " Jesus was born." "No, that's not right" said Peter. He sent him over to stand with the first man. The last man came forward and was asked by Peter the same question. The third man answer with a confident voice, "That's when Jesus came out of his tomb..." "That's correct" exclaimed Peter but the man continued "...and if he sees his shadow, we'll have six more weeks of winter."

LOL Good day and have a hoppy Easter, loves.

Dream, Death, Mortality and Movies

I've come to realize that I am not a book monogamousist. I tend to read about 3 or 4 books at one time. I also realized that all of my current books deal in some rather heavy themes. Right now I am reading the Sandman collection by Neil Gaiman, Plague Dogs by Richard Adams and Learning Joy from Dogs without Collars. I am very much enjoying all of them but at some point I fully expect for my brain to stop working or go on strike.

The Sandman collection is a series of bound graphic novels which are a collection of comics. I have finished 1 -6 and am anxiously waiting on number 7 so that I can finally read 8 - 11 that I have been hoarding. I also am reading the Sandman Companion which is close to being as fasinating as the Sandman graphic novels. If I had to summarize the plot of the Sandman graphic novels, I don't think I could. In the big print it is the stories of Morpheus or Dream. But in the small print it is beyond description.

One of the things I like about it is how Death is portrayed. Death is a girl for one and so not the cloaked, scythe carrying scary person that is normally seen. One of the other things I like about Sandman is the use of storytelling and myth.

Which just happens to be a favorite vehicle for Richard Adams as well. The use of myth. Plague Dogs is a tale of two dogs who escaped from a testing lab and basically become wild. Rowf was used to test the possibility of revival after drowning and Snitter had some sort of brain operation. I loved reading Watership Down but I can't decide about Plague Dogs. It is a great book but a tough read. As after Watership Down I so want to investigate his background a bit more. It makes me want to head back to school just so I can write papers on these books.

He does such a brilant job of having mortality layers. There is a blaring obvious layer of the ethical treatment of animals but I suspect that the animals aren't just animals. I suspect that they may also be representation of groups of people. Yep... the brain should be going into shock right about now.

But me, I am just bad to my brain... I mean books is one thing but I force it to think about movies as well. I just watched 13 Conversation about One Thing. It was all about fate and choices and how what we choose effect other's destinies. It is a good thing I stocked up on bodice rippers to get my brain a break. Those are beyond shallow. They are fluff. Not a moral to be seen. Literally or Figuratively...

See this helps. Getting it all out so that I don't have an overload of thoughts. I really should find a book discussion group. I miss talking about what I am reading.

What else is new? I went to church and lunch with D and H on Sunday. Very awesome people they are. I need to continue my church hopping. Theirs was good but not quite me. I have this set idea of what I want. LOL It was great church hopping in England being an Episcopalian. I mean finding an Episcopal or Church of England chuch was so difficult there... Not!

I am heading out to see P in a couple weeks. She is having a procedure done and I wanted to be there for her. So send her prayers, good thoughts and large bills : ) Otherwise I am doing okay. Too tired to upgrade that to a good right now.

Good day and pray often (especially during tax time)

Mental Health Day

No, this is not the day to go prove or disprove your sanity. I took a few days off as mental health days. It is just a day to get my brain back in gear. I ended up reading and just relaxing for most of it. Though I did get some cleaning done. And Tada! I cooked last night. I haven't done that in so long my dishes were thinking of harikaring and donating themselves to a mosaic shop. It was actually pretty tasty. But an enjoyable couple of days.

It is hard to break out of the habit of doing things. Relaxing is an artform not yet appreciated. I did catch myself a couple of times thinking of work. But I popped a Brachs in my mouth and tried to think of other things.

Alright kiddos... I've got to get back to work.

Good day and go mental.

What Boonies-Living has Done

I had to share with you all the sight I saw as I was out and about doing outreaches for the library yesterday. I was on my way back to the library when I noticed a strange vehicle coming up from behind. As it passed, I had to do a double take. It was a very tricked out hearse. Chrome and the whole nine yards. The back window had been decaled with a huge skull and crossbones and read "Dead Ride" just above the skull. Of course I was quite curious as to the adventurous soul who was driving (no pun intended: P) The guy looked normal enough except for his head gear. It was a black cowboy hat covered in red bones.

And I thought my bug stuck out in the land of pickup trucks : )

Good day and I see dead rides (temperature drops)

I've lost my hour already... and got the missing posters ready!

Please forgive me if this isn't a mite coherent as it still feels way too early for this. I don't know what I will do when I have my hour taken away this weekend. What exactly happens to all those hours? Is there like a big huge snow week at the end of time where all of the hours lost for DLST will be used?

Part of the reason I am so tired is I was so awake after the concert last night. I went to the Celtic Woman concert and it was just wonderful. I clapped and cried and tried not to sing along out loud. It was really great. I haven't been to anything artisitic in a while. I tend to head straight home after work.

I also made a friend yesterday. I was talking to my eye doc's receptionist about kids, cats, husbands and the library. She wants to go to the new main but felt weird going by herself. So we're making plans to go there. Also a very cool thing in my book. I don't have enough friends. I know a lot of people but I don't hang out with a lot of people. I've gotten a wee bit spoiled with doing things by myself a lot. But I want to change that a bit and make it a wee bit more even. I'll keep you posted. I also decided that I do need to get out more. A flower in the sun all the time dries out. A flower in the rain all the time drowns. But a flower that is in both blossoms big and strong. I so should have become a fortune cookie writer. Is it too late to change majors? What classes would I need for this? Confuicius 101?

Good day and bloom big!

Live happily

I was cleaning out my things one day and came across this list I had started way back when. It was all a verb and then an adverb. The title was on the top of my list. Some of the others were love completely, kiss deeply, and laugh wholeheartedly. Nice reminders from my past for my now. I also found poems, reports and one very cheesy short story from my creative writing days. It is nice to know I haven't left my cheesiness behind.

In that same cleaning fit, I also tossed a number of old love letters from ex-boyfriends. It was like holding on to tangible evidence that I was loved once. I didn't even reread them. Just into the trashbin they went. One last leash of old past holding me from my new future. I still have a number of things to clean out but one closet at a time.

Good day and you'd be amazed at how much junk I have (internal and external). Maybe a twenty one broom salute is due : P

Here I am to Save the Day!

Just a little Mighty Mouse for all of you. I had yesterday off work and spend almost the entire day in bed going from sleeping to reading and back again. It was just lovely. I knew I had things that I would like to get done but just felt like a lazy day was needed. I work so very hard most of the time.

We have a new staff person coming in on Monday. I am very much looking forward to working with her as I mainly just know about her from children's meetings.

You may have to look twice today. I lightened my hair last night and it looks fab-ul-ous! Or mostly like me with lighter hair: ) and waver hair. Somehow if I wash my hair at night and let it airdry overnight...BAM! Insta-perm. I look like I was attacked by perm ninjas overnight. It is a cute look on me but always reminds me of the commerical they run after Jeopardy. My hair is straight but Roger just called and now I just wash and it's curly. My personal thought is the hair is so scared of Roger that it curls just to get even a little bit away from him.... BRRR...

Good day and beware of Doug...

Just Breathe

Another awesome weekend with P. She came into town on Friday and just left today. She is one of my favorite people to talk with. She is so able to do the silly and serious conversation.

Work was good on Saturday. We did reader's theatre for Saturday Surprise. Who knew that there were so many ways to say the word "please"? We just had a blast. It continues to get a bit easier. The first couple of my evaluations came in. I am so glad I stole that idea. It just really helps to have an idea of how I am doing from my staff that is very constructive. I have been able to take some of the ideas and start working on how to incorporate them. I am really trying hard to be a good boss but at the same time grow some thicker skin.

I need to work harder at getting out more. I am so used to heading home just after work. No detours. I need to find some fun. I hope P. does decide to move closer so we can hang out more. I really think that having someone cool to hang out with would make me do more stuff. Motiviation : P is not my strong suit. Neither is picking up on subleties... It's a good thing that I'm a lifelong learner believer. Life is too precious not to learn or be stagnant.

Maybe I should learn to remember to get my key before P. left town. She accidentally took it out to my other library : 0 I've got to go pick it up in order to go home. Woops! : )

Good day and learn darnit!

You guys rock!

That seems to be the most prevelant thought as I read over the comments from my last blog. As Bartles and James used to say "Thank you for your support." It really just made my day.

I ran away yesterday. It wasn't a big run. Just down the way to P's house. She is doing good but is frustrated about the whole job thing. There is just a glut of collegies where she lives and it is hard competing. But she keeps trying which is good. We spent the day lazing around which makes the day off even better. Plus I had the best drive there. It was late with very little traffic and a good CD to listen to. I resisted the urge to find out where on road went. Oh but by my fingertips though. Next time when I have more time. I told her I would come in May for more days and figure out the whole how to pay for college thing with her. Somehow my $3.60 from the Upromise account does seem to cover the college expenses. Must buy more Gordon's and Cottonelle.

We party tomorrow for St. Patty's/March B-days. And then again in two weeks... occassionally we work : P

Oh and I get to breathe a bit easier as we will have another children's person before the current one leaves. I had vision of my April being really really bad with having to handle branch duties and children/teen duties as well. I did it for a month at another branch. Whew!

Good day and party til it hurts.

Take two oreos and call me in the morning

I seem to remember a Weird Al song dedicated to that principle... The White Stuff. Whatever it was about the oreos, all I know is I ate a couple and was out like a light yesterday. It had been a long day and week. Somehow I feel more like myself. At least somewhat... I still feel a bit like I am walking on eggshells.

If you are a bit confused, join the club. Last week I was told by someone that I was half the reason that they were leaving. Then they alluded to that they weren't the only ones looking for a way out. Talk about feeling like being hit by a 2x4. I had thought I was doing such a good job.

So I spent most of the week(this and last) doubting myself big time. I have asked my staff to do an evaluation of me. It isn't a requirement but "I can't fix what I am doing wrong if I don't know it is wrong". That is what I have been telling all of them.

I also haven't told anyone this with the except of God. He has been hearing a lot of this. It has been really tough. I keep trying to convince myself that this is a good thing and that I will learn a lot from this. But it hurts.

Some lessons are.

Good day and learning is a good thing.

Comments from a Fishbowl

Blub, blub, blub and a-gurgle. I feel like that sometimes as my office has a window. Not to mention an open door.

I saved a Cowboy the other day. He was very cute and cuddly. Thank goodness he was wearing a collar.

Okay so it was dog named Cowboy. He spent last Sunday afternoon hanging out with me at my apartment. I had just left for lunch when this little dog came running up to my car. I spotted it in my driveway to check on him and he jumped in the car when I opened the door. Since I didn't have my phone, I shut him in the car long enough to run back in the house to get it. I called the number on the tag. No person just a machine. So I went back in the house to get it organized ie. corral the cats into the other room. Basil puffed up twice his size with the mere whiff of doggish scent. Cats in the living room... now to sneak the dog in the other part of the apartment. That taken care of, I headed off to get drive thru. Once home, Cowboy and I hung out. He was a very very friendly dog. Several hours later after a couple more calls and some napping in my bed, Cowboy's family came to get him. It was a mom and her two kids. They had torn the house apart looking for him and not realized that he had slipped out the door when they had left.

Thank good ness they came to get him. He was such a little thing and I was glad I found him when I did. The street I live on is a very busy street even on a Sunday.

Oh and the bad day is slowly moving out. I told you ... hope helps...

Good day and yeee-haaaaah!

The Bad Day by EMC

Once upon a time, there was a very bad day. It moved into my house yesterday and seems to feel quite at home as it showed no signs of moving. It has messed with my sleep and my eating. I am hoping that once I go home today it will have moved out. Nothing scares a bad day as much as hope. I hope.... I hope...

Good day and keeping hoping.

I love my job

I know it's a scary fact but it is a fact. I am utter perfection at this. I have found my niche.

So can you guess that my Sunday work was pretty easy. I am very glad I found some of my daily work to bring with me. It did make it easier as the first part of the afternoon was fairly slow. But even as it picked up. It never actually got too hard. I was really a bit worried that I won't be able to handle running another library. I had forgotten that unlike my daily job, this was at a bigger library. Bigger library = bigger staff. More people to take on the job I have to take on at my smaller branch.

Mucho fabulouso! But I normally feel this way about my daily library as well. I love getting to help people learn more about all sorts of stuff.

For the most part I had to make sure that the payroll forms got filled out corrrectly and sent in. Plus I got to spend all my time in childrens where I started out in. It is so cool getting them to smile or finding whatever it is that they need. Plus part of my job is showing them how to find it themselves. Ultra coolness : )

Okay, enough gushing... Still as much as I love it, don't think I won't be the number one person running out to my car at the end of the day :P

Good night and librarians don't die, they get a checkin date of never.

Yawn...or Not to Yawn

That is most certainly the question today. I woke up early this morning at 4, read until 6, slept until 8. I crashed yesterday about 9 so I did get my eight hours but the rest of the morning had me a bit befuddled. If I get 8 hours, am I still tired by my waking at 4? Things to ponder # 1,256...

So note to self never promise wonders. They just don't work that way. It takes away from the wondering. Maybe I should mix mundanes and wonders. That way....no because the mundane can be a wonder. Like Wednesday was going to be stars. They are probably my number one wonder and they need no explanation to go with them. Though I have always loved the idea that we may see a star's light that is no longer there.

I think I will leave Thursday's wonder up to you all. One person's wonder is another's mundane. Case in point, my dad has been taking pictures of mundane things that he finds beautiful.

I have decided that the plan of working out in the evening after work is a foolhardy plan. Even with my $2.00 in my pocket and my workout clothes in my car, I still can't seem to get myself to the CF gym to work out. So I came up with a new plan. On my late days for work ( I have two days I don't have to be here until 11 : ), I go that morning and then either on Sunday or my day off. Unfornuately this Sunday I have to work at another branch and Monday is a holiday so the earliest I will be able to get in is Tuesday.

Oh, the best laid plans of mice and men... though I never did exactly understand why mice had to plan. Except for Pinky and the Brain... : P

Good day and what are we going do tomorrow night, Brain?

Happy VD!

LOL I just couldn't resist the title. It stands for Valentine's Day for those curiously minded. As to whether mine is happy is still out on debate. I just sat through a very long meeting for work. It seemed only longer because someone had forgotten to set their clock back in the meeting room. Maybe that is why it was so cold. Though I can't complain truly seeing as my Canada people see this as a balmy day at 29 : )

Okay today's wonder is personal strength. Blame this one on the Olympics. As I only have 5 channels and a limited amount of movies I can check out, I find myself watching the Olympics nightly. I am in awe of all that they go through just to get there. I don't particularly care who wins... I cheered like crazy when the Chinese came in silver for the pairs skating just because they had a horrible fall and got up to continue their skate.

As well I know myself I don't think I will be entering any competitions any time soon. But I know my strength. It is said that God never gives you any trial that you aren't strong enough for. He must think mightly highly of some of us. I mean think back on all you have gone through. Bad jobs, horrible relationships, regretful decisions... but you press on. It is amazing what we deal with everyday in the Olympics of our lives.

So back to the day, no plans tonight except to spend them with my true loves... Henri, Basil and Hazel (my kitties)

Good day and To the world you may be just one person but to one person you may be the world.

Three Wonders for the price of One

Okay so the whole wonders in a row only works if I am blogging everyday. Due to the lack of computers in my house, I can't blog on the weekends. So Saturday's wonder was the sense of touch, Sunday's was ability to laugh and today's is being able to read.

I love to play this game with myself. I focus on what I am feeling all at the same time. The clothes on my skin, the keyboard under my fingers, my tongue in my mouth. I think touch is taken for granted. I often wonder what my life would be like without it. There was a news story once about a little girl who didn't feel pain. As much as one might think that would be great, the pain wasn't there to tell her to stop doing something to herself. So wonder #1: to feel.

Everyone does it. Though we do it for different reasons and some of us do it when they hear someone else doing it. Laugh (I know what you thought I was talking about... cheeky buggers). We may forget how to do it sometimes or feel like we may never do it again. But it doesn't stop us from being able to. I know for a fact that God does it too.

And lastly, number 3 of which you have otherwise you wouldn't be able to follow this blog in the first place. Can you imagine what your life would be like if you couldn't? The smallest things we take for granted would be massive hurdles.

So wonders done for now. I had a lovely weekend of hanging out with most of my family and lazing around with kitties. It was within inches of heaven. I think all life is within inches of heaven. You determine how many inches...

Good day and may your inches be few : )

Piles upon piles

I am a pile person. Where are my clothes? In piles. What about work stuff? Piles. It is like a weird nervous tic. I believe I really realized that I pile everything when I finally became to tackle organizing my stamp collection. Yes, the snail mail kind. I split all of them up into their respective countries. And yes, they were in piles hence my thought of "I am a pile person".

It was a very interesting day over all. Dad and I went to an Ethopian restaurant. I couldn't figure out at first why they didn't bring us silverware. Or at least until they brought out our lunch on this large pancake-like bread which then became your silverware. I had a really great time hanging out with him. He is a very cool and interesting person although he tells the worst most horrible jokes. But I love him so I'll forgive him for that : ) Our time was just perfect too. I had no sooner walked the door from Dad's that my stamp album stuff got delivered. When I had originally called, they said it would be delivered between 9 am to 7 pm. Major ughs!

Doing the organizing may think a little about countries and history and patriotism. I do have stamps from places that no longer exist. Or places that changed names. How much of their identity was wrapped up in their country's name? How would I feel if all of a sudden when went from USA to USBL(United States of Bovine Lovers)? How much of ME is wrapped up in being an American? It was somewhat like thinking of how much of me is being female. I had about the same amount of choice (none) in either of those situations. I love living in America but I don not thinking we are the be all end all of countries. We have so much more to learn.

I have stamps from all over the world which got me thinking of history. Not world history but people history. I wondered what and who all these stamps had interacted with. All the news that they had shared that changed someone's life forever. That is today's wonder. I am hoping to do seven wonders in a row.

Okay, since all of you are now probably scratching your heads. I finished the PostSecret book the other day. It was beyond phenomenal. But the one that stuck in my head was the one that told how they saw no wonder in the world anymore. So hence the wonder...

Good day and may all your days be wonder-filled.