Friday, June 19, 2009

My fort of Boxes

I prayed for the moving guys today. This weekend is supposed to be over 100 here and I am sure that they are working.

We are all moved in. Things were packed and the movers complimented us on how everything was done when they got there. : ) Then it was done. If they have come the day before, it was major chaos. I let B. pack up the office. I was , as normal, trying to do it all by myself. And getting frustrated. That is so hard for me.

I always want to do it all myself. I had to force myself not even to enter the room. Otherwise I would start taking over.

I had to laugh though. We had different priorities on what room should be unpacked first. For him, it was the computer and office setup and for me, it was the kitchen and bathroom : P But we packed together and we unpack together.

Another funny thing has been the dreams. For the first several days, I had weird dreams. One was about eating a chili cheese hotdog. The other was working at a library that was only open from 12:30 to 2:30 and at 2:30 exactly all power was cut off in the building. I had to feel my way out.

And the most peculiar was the one where I was driving with Mom and the power went out. Not just the streets but the cars. We got out to walk and I remember walking past a car with a family inside. When I looked in the car windows, it looked like they lived in it. The look that the little girl inside was just so unbelievable sad. All the cars were stopped all ascew and just ahead of those cars, there were bodies lying all around.

But the last one was the night before's. I dreamed I made the kitties ketchup sandwiches. I am never where my brain comes up with this stuff.

Good night and dream not of ketchup : P

Friday, June 12, 2009

A Sword, Strippers and Children

A couple of nights ago, I came home after dinner with T and asked B. what he thought about the name of Patricia Hazel for a girl's name. Every now and then, we discuss what we would like to name our kids. Patricia Hazel is my current favorite for girl and John Andrew is his current favorite for a boy.

No worries, people. This is not my way of announcing anything. We just have decided to give it a year to work on saving for a house and getting my health all taken care of and then working on kids.

Although after this story, I may change my mind. I have a friend. She is a lovely, sweet woman who thinks of many before her own needs. She came in to work this morning stating that she hadn't gotten any sleep. I was curious so I asked if she wanted to talk about it. She shook her head no. I then asked which daughter was it about. She just grimaced. She has three kids. One daughter lives at home with her and the other in a house that she owns. They are both about my age. Or as someone put it today, old enough to know better but not enough to care....

Well, she got a phone call from the out of the house daughter, N. at 3 or 4 this morning. N. was quite upset. She had just had her car window stabbed with a sword. Yeah. A sword. Apparently she was dropping a friend off and her two other friends were in the backseat. Well, they got to the address. The friend got out as another guy came out of the house. A whole lot of yelling and cussing insued. Then a whole bunch of strippers came out of the house. Yeah, strippers. And the yelling and cussing went up a couple knouches.

Apparently one of the strippers was more than just a little upset or something because she started attacking N's car. She was throwing all sorts of things at it causing all sorts of dents and scratches.

And then she got a sword and tried to put it through the car window. It was actually thrust hard enough to break the glass and put a hole in the window. N called the police and her mom. Well, then N decided the police, who had decided it was a she said she said situation, weren't doing enough. So she decided to yell at them and accuse them of siding with the strippers.

Woa. And all this time she is on the phone with my friend, JC. With all the commotion, JC's husband wakes up. In his Phillipino accent, he begans saying son of beech, son of beech, that's it. These girls are crazy. We are moving to the mountains. JC is half fussed at N and half trying to calm her husband down. The situation finally calmed down and N didn't get arrested thankfully.

Now, I really feel bad for my friend. She really has a great heart. I know she has been really frustrated dealing with her daughters. But I could NOT stop laughing while she is telling me this. At one point, I told her I just can't shake this vision of a Red Sonja stripper stabbing the car.

And they say library workers have a quiet and dull time... just tell me this when did you go to work and get a sword and stripper story?

Good night and watch out for sword carrying strippers.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

Stonehenge is now a flower bed path...

I notice things. Some of them because they are out of place in my normal days doings. Some because they are something I see every day and they change.

Saturday, I noticed a man walking down the street. Just an ordinary man. Normal clothes, normal shoes, normal everything but one thing. He has carrying a cross. Not just in his hands or arms. It was over his shoulder. It was taller than he was. My first thought was Pick up your cross and follow me. And then I thought that it was better than Jesus' own. It had wheels on it.

The second thing I noticed was something I drive by regularly. There is a corner on a street near my house. It is a plain ordinary corner. Someone used to plant wild flowers there. They also used to have a bunch of rocks put there. They were just plain rocks, about the size of a good sized book or bigger. I decided it was our own version of Stonehenge. I didn't know how it had been put together. I just enjoyed seeing it. It has been through different formations and for a while recently it had been missing. It eventually got put back up though. But right now it has become a border. A flower bed border... I am sad to see it used so practically.

I really liked that it changed and I never knew if it would still be there or how it would look. The joy was in the not knowing. Perhaps it will change again. Or maybe the joy is in the not knowing but hoping it will be back. I'll just have faith in the unseen and the unknown.

I have faith in the unseen and unknown God. Part of my joy is him is in the learning and the seeing.

Good day and keep your eyes peeled. You'd be amazed at all you see.

Thursday, May 28, 2009

L'eau, Aqua and Water

That is what I drink primarily now. I have just finished off my fourth bottle today. Neither my primary or my cardiologist want me drinking much of any thing else.

Today I talked up the summer library programs. It was so much fun. The kids really enjoyed "I ain't gonna Paint No More" book and the My aunt came back song. I never realize how thirsty I am and how much my feet hurt until after the program. I love just doing the stories though. That is my favorite part of the job. The having fun with the kids and talking about and reading books.

I wonder sometimes what has happened to some of the kids that I used to work with. My first internship kids would be graduating either this year or next. How cool is that? This year I've got three people graduating. T. , S. and M. I am very proud of them all : )

Good day and dream big.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

Feeling better... finally

I have had a bad congestion for about two weeks. I am finally starting to feel not so fuzzy. I had a lovely day yesterday with J. We headed off to do some shopping at Cato and WallyWorld. It is so funny to me that we have such different tastes but we are pretty much the same size right now. I got some really cute things for work and B liked the pjs I picked out : P

B and I headed out today to see the new Star Trek movie. It was really good and even better was spending time with him. He finally got the info for his business trip in July. I am planning to spend the first weekend with him but he is going to be there for a week. I can't even imagine being here without him. I just love him beyond words.

Tomorrow we plan just to hang here and pack. The three major rooms I hope to get done are the office, kitchen and bedroom. Then that should be most of it. Even though we don't move for a while yet : ) I just like being ready. Plus it gives me time to clear out stuff. I think we will both be ready by time is comes around.

Good night and I love B.

Friday, May 01, 2009

Blast from the Past

I tend to think of myself as quiet and nice. And fun sometimes too. I don't think of myself as memorable.

Yesterday I had a training class and someone recognized me. He was someone I worked with like ten years ago. I have had that happen before. Someone from high school has come into the library. There was another high schooler who came into my children's program with her kids about six years ago.

The longest were the girl who about 5 or 6 years ago remembered me from 3rd grade and the my first grade teacher who was still working as a teacher who I subbed for. Talk about head flip.

It just seems so strange. It makes me wonder what I did that stuck out in someone's head. Especially the teacher. I mean she has had to have seen hundreds if not thousands of kids. What was so special about me? It does make me glad though. I mean, if I had been horrible or mean, maybe they wouldn't have said anything...

Good day and remember when....

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Curse it all, I napped!

I can't get to sleep. I had a bad headache when I came home today. So I laid down.

Big mistake. I napped and now when it is time to get to sleep, nothing doing. I mainly can't get my head to shut up. I started thinking about work tomorrow, storytime, Mother's Day, calling sibs.... on and on.

We are waiting to hear the fate of our moving. Supposedly we have a seller for this place and our landlady wanted us to move out as of the 27th of May. But I haven't heard a definite yet. Pins and needles.

We sent our last (?) rent check in with the letter of intent to move on Monday. And we have already done our deposit for the new place. I would like to just know how much packing time I have.

Good night/morning and oh, happy day!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Fostering Reading

I have to teach a class tomorrow on the importance of fostering reading. It is to a bunch of teen moms or moms-to-be. I hope something I say will touch at least one of them or make them think.

I can barely imagine being pregant now much less when I was a teen. I am still on a wait and see as result are being figured out. I meet with my doctor at the end of the month and I need to schedule my follow up with my cardiologist. Once I get a better handle on my health stuff, then we can start figuring out the kids thing.

He would like two. I would like at least one. Everyone just wants us to get started. But it is important to me to have a little time to work on being a wife. The best thing I can give a child is a loving family to come into. Plus a love of books. Both of us read everything we can get our hands on. So hopefully no worries there.

That actually has been the hard part about packing the books up. I have to keep myself from making a pile for myself.

Good night and happy reading.

Friday, April 10, 2009

I wish I could figure out my phone...

I have a newish cell phone. It allegedly can upload pics to the computer and download music. I say allegedly because I have yet to be able to do either. I've taken a number of photos with my phone but that is as far as I have gotten. I have the cable to transfer them and a micro SD card.

But the card won't stay in the phone. That most definitely makes for a hard time in transfer.

Ugh! Two steps forward and three back.

I've been having to wear a heart monitor for the last week and I have to wear it for another two. The monitor part looks like a Blackberry : ) I haven't really felt the same fast heartbeat that I had before since having to wear the monitor.'

: ) I am bad at getting my symptoms to be caught. It is like I feel better when I set up the doctor's appointment : P

Good day and good day.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

For a quiet girl I can make the silence loud

I drove quietly home today. I had yelled at B and gotten so mad that I couldn't talk to him. When we got home, I took in the tea and he took in the chicken dinner we had gotten. I put the tea down and went upstairs to the bedroom and shut the door.

I was mad. We had just been visiting J. I had been a bit confusing to him and I was trying to explain why I did what I did. He said that J. hadn't wanted visitors. I said I thought she would rather have someone visit to take her mind off the pain.

I felt like he was reading my sister better than I was. I felt stupid and thought he was accusing me of causing her pain.

He was trying to explain and I told him to shut up.

We don't fight often. And so much of it is me reading into what he is saying. For a reading whiz, I so read him wrong. Partly it is a release. I am stressed about things and I redirect that stress at him to let go of it.

Partly it is I am used to being held at arm's length with things being hidden in my relationships. I am not used to an honest guy. I mean I've had two relationships end by the guy moving away and never talking again to me. That'll do something to a girl.

We talked again after I got up. We kissed and made up. I will always love him even if we fight. I'd rather fight with him then live without him.

Good night and return to your corners....

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

A little Lupine

So from a feline post to a lupine today. My doc visit went just fine. They don't have a clear picture on the thyroid. So they took more blood to do some more tests.

The reason I am lupine is I have Wolffe-Parkinson-White syndrome. It is something I was born with and it basically means occassionally my electrical system in my heart causes it to beat fast for no reason. The doc is scheduling me to see a special cardiologist which deals with the electrical system of the heart. It isn't fatal and can be treated with with a beta blocker or a nonevasive surgery. I'll know more after my cardiologist visit.

Oh and I medalled today. We had our staff day and I was in two events. The Database Scavenger Hunt and the Brain Bowl. I got gold for both : )

Good day and the beat goes on....

Saturday, March 14, 2009

I love kids but....


We went to the Irish Festival today. We had wandered here and there enjoying Irish food, dance and music. To top off the day, I decided to get my face painted. Just some harmless fun... But....we were waiting in the long line of mostly kids and a sparse population of others (teens and adults). It was almost my turn and I had been impressed with the artist. She was doing a great job. All of us were quite excited when it was our turn.
When it was my turn, I got skipped. I got skipped by this kindergardener named Caleb. He had been getting more and more excited, turning around several times to tell his mom that he was getting the Dark Knight face painting. He had been standing right beside me and so when the kid left out the chair in front of me, he hopped right up no hestitation.
And I had to be the mean adult. I had to tell Caleb it wasn't his turn. Then I had to close my eyes to get my face done and listen to Caleb's mom behind me tell him it wasn't wrong and that he would have a turn in a second. But I loved my face painting and I had waited my turn.
I so often give in to kids. In my work as a children's librarian, I get nervous and tired and cranky. But for kids, I put it aside to give them a great storytime. I put a lot of work into crafts that may see 2 or 3 kids show up for. I spend time being a tutor or game player or an adult that just listens.
It was just this time I didn't. I stood up for what I wanted.
Good day and quid pro quo kids!

Friday, March 13, 2009

How am I?

The doctor wanted my blood tested again for the thyroid. We have much to talk about me doc and I. I see her again on Tuesday and I have one more question for her. I am so tired all the time now. I usually nap at least once during the day. And I used to wake up feeling refreshed. Now I just wake up tired.

On another note, we got a Wii. B and I have really been enjoying playing together. The one I think we both like best is the tennis. And it is very much a workout. LOL I almost took out the fan cord though. And I have begun packing and cleaning out. Our lease isn't up until June but I wanted enough time to clean out stuff.

I am really looking forward to moving. The new place seems great. And I have so missed natural light. That was one major drawback to a townhouse.

Good day and let the light shine in.

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

The wonders of Technology

So yesterday, with much nervousness, I headed off to get my portable heart monitor. I had to go to the local hospital for this Holder monitor. It basically is these electrodes that are placed around my chest and they are attached to a recorder.

LOL The recorder is basically a walkman. Or at least it looks a lot like one. And not even a CD walkman. No, it is a cassette tape. I wondered where they all went. Well, it looks like they went to the hospital. I wonder if I could borrow one to make an eighties mix tape : P

So after getting the darn thing on and after trying to be so careful with it, I went in this morning to get the tape and battery replaced. Wouldn't you know it.... the tape had gotten caught up on one of the knobs and it had only recorded maybe as much as me leaving the office and out to my car. Barely 10 minutes. Not exactly the 24 hours that they had wanted.

So now I have a new machine and I have to keep this machine on until Thursday. Ugh! The worst is it itches just slightly. Not enough that I scratch but enough that it makes me want to...

But I did still feel like a fast heartbeat on Saturday and Sunday and my blood pressure did go up so I will keep the evil itchy machine on.

Good day and the beat goes on....

Friday, February 27, 2009

Now for the so-so

I got sick last weekend. It wasn't pretty. And for Sunday and Monday, I couldn't really sleep. Not because of being sick but it felt like my heart was pounding. No matter whether I was walking around the apartment or trying to rest, it felt like it was racing. I'd take my pulse and it would be fine but it still felt like a pounding in my chest.

The week before I had felt really run down and felt a little short of breath but felt better with the vacay so I just chalked it up to nerves or stress.

I finally told B about it Tuesday after I made a doctor's appointment. We went and pulse and blood pressure was fine. When I told her about being sick, she thought it might have been dehydration. So lots of fluid that day and since. It feels more normal. But she did schedule for me to have a portable heart monitor for Monday and Tuesday just to check and make sure.

When she told me that, I smiled a bit. See, when I went to see Grandfather the last time, they did something similiar to him and he was all excited about it. He even wanted me to take a picture of him in it. I wouldn't make B do that but I'm sure I will think of him Monday.

What was even funnier was the fact that I took Basil (one of our cats) into the vet and pretty much we had the same tests done (sans the heart monitor). But we got tested for thryoid and found out we both have very slight heart mummurs.

The hardest thing is trying not to read up on heart related diseases. This would be the one time reading would stress me and not relieve my stress.

Good night and stay cool, boy...

I've had the good...

Beloved and I on a surrey (horse and carriage)


Me at the port


Shots from the Glass Bottom Boat




More scenes... they told us we were right above a wreck.... not exactly reassuring with sharks below...






Nuf' said

Beloved on the Fascination


Look, honey... a manatee!

I ordered a special Happy Anniversary decorations package for the room : D

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

When I can't think of anything else...

1.YOUR REAL NAME: Eve Harm
2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle name) Mae Wilson
3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) Jack Zade
4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your firstname) Harsm
5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal) Rainbow Cat
6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born) Mercy Jacksonville
7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Blue Thai Iced Tea
8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name) Have
9.ROCK STAR NAME:(current pets name, current street name) Basil Oak
10. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you lived when born) Noddon 59th
11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) Eveizzle
12.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, firsttwo letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last threeletters of your last name) Vrmevehar
13.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets) Black Hazel
14. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume, fav candy) Sunflowers Chocolate

Saturday, February 07, 2009

They let me have 30 minutes more


I love my kitties but they are driving me bonkers. Henri decided to put his entire fuzzy blanket into the water bowl this morning. And Basil spent 30 minutes sitting on me trying to get me up. I got a magnet the other day that said "There is no snooze button for a cat who wants breakfast". Tell me about it.... Though it has kept me on track with the getting up a little early to work out. I actually did an entire week. Which trust me, for me, that is awesome.


In other news, the lady that owns the townhouse we are renting is selling the place. We are still okay til June but wow... I think we half expected it. I think the realtor was also kind of feeling me out for the possibility that we might want it. But we don't want to buy anything right now. I know that there are great deals now but not if he gets a permenant job in say Cleveland. Then we become the people trying to sell in this market. No thanks!

Only 6 days til the cruise. I am so looking forward to it. Just time alone with B and I . No cats, no work, just relaxing. We have an inside cabin again. As nice it is to have natural light, I love sleeping in complete darkness. It justs makes for a hard sleep.

Good day and a man walks into a bar....ouch! LOL

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

Do the Motions or the Solution?

Today, they came again. I know. Sounds like the start of a great sci-fi novel. But no, it was just the glass people. This time, the person they sent was C and he decided not to leave until my leak was fixed. Finally someone who saw beyond the work.

It took a bit of fiddling but he tested it three or four times and my car didn't leak. Holy Hannah! I don't know if it will hold but it did make me feel slightly (begrudingly) better about the company.

I have to remember C and his lesson of do the solution. I hear the same thing day in and day out. And they are just like me. I just wanted a solution. It takes a bit to get there but it can be done.

I also got to do a storytime today. My second in the last two weeks. Trust me, after months of nada, this is like butter.... : P I really enjoyed it and the kids seemed to as well. We talked a bit about Black History Month. And peace. Todd Par has a book called the Peace Book. He talks about what peace is... you know peace is hugging a friend or keeping the streets clean or pizza enough for everyone in the world. Who knew pizza was another world for peace? Hmmm... Pizza Hut ambassadors? It is interesting to be talking about how alike we are but how special at the same time.

I get so busy sometimes that I forget to remind myself about my specialness. I have a special way of reading. I change my voice and movements to match the story. I have a special talent for talking to all sorts of people. I have a special way of looking at the world. I have a special voice and brain that can remember all sorts of weird and interesting facts. Did you know you can not sneeze with your eyes open? Or that nothing rhymes with orange?

Good night and enjoy the coolness of me and of you.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Despise, Hate or Frustated

I can't decide which word fits how I feel about SAG. My back window was broken totally on December 31st. I went with the company that the insurance guys went with. Well, tomorrow will be the third time this month that they are coming to fix my car. The seal isn't right. When it gets wet, it drips all into the trunk.




We had a heavy rain last night and I came out to a trunk half covered in half an inch of water. I took off part of this morning to go get a cover that I could put on the car. See, everyone I called said that they couldn't fix it today because of the rain. But had it not rained, I wouldn't have known that there was still a problem. I feel Noah-ish today. It is all about the flood. I just have to keep telling myself that no rain means no rainbows. Even though today I feel a bit drowned in trouble and sorrow.

Good day and remember rainbows.