Major Yawn

If I am not my vivacious self today, blame it on my late night. Late but good... it was date # I have lost count...the always wonderful MH took me out to dinner and then back to the apartment to watch movies. Yes, we had planned to go to the movies but thought to make an early night of it: ) by watching a movie at my house. Since he then left at 2 in the morning, our plans obviously went a bit awry: P

Tonight does not sound to be any earlier. P is stopping in for an overnight on her way onto her vacation spot(s) but won't be arriving at my place until 2ish herself. She is going to miss the Labor Day party. Maybe we can stop by at her place on the way back from our vacay.

Which is taking its sweet time in getting here. But I have schedules to finish and schemes to arrange so maybe it is an okay thing. I need to call the place for Sunday and make sure everything is set and I need to go by PB's to get something for Saturday. I already have the Friday thing. I am still working on the Monday thing but it is a bit easier now.

I should have napped. Must pencil one in today : P

Good day and sweet dreams...

Major Yawn

If I am not my vivacious self today, blame it on my late night. Late but good... it was date # I have lost count...the always wonderful MH took me out to dinner and then back to the apartment to watch movies. Yes, we had planned to go to the movies but thought to make an early night of it: ) by watching a movie at my house. Since he then left at 2 in the morning, our plans obviously went a bit awry: P

Tonight does not sound to be any earlier. P is stopping in for an overnight on her way onto her vacation spot(s) but won't be arriving at my place until 2ish herself. She is going to miss the Labor Day party. Maybe we can stop by at her place on the way back from our vacay.

Which is taking its sweet time in getting here. But I have schedules to finish and schemes to arrange so maybe it is an okay thing. I need to call the place for Sunday and make sure everything is set and I need to go by PB's to get something for Saturday. I already have the Friday thing. I am still working on the Monday thing but it is a bit easier now.

I should have napped. Must pencil one in today : P

Good day and sweet dreams...

Short and Sweet

My internet manna appears to have dried up at home. It was a good run while it lasted though. I have yet to decide what to do about it.

I am throwing a salad party for my staff to celebrate highest holds percentage and highest circulation for a neighborhood in July. I get the stats after the month is already passed : ) It is hard coming up with a theme for these parties. Yes, librarians are party animals. We usually have a party every month for this or that : P And they decided on the salad party idea. It seems everyone is pretty much on a diet. But no worries... I baked them a Danish Puff with Vanilla Walnut glaze to conteract all the healthy stuff.

I had forgotten how much I enjoy baking. Though I need more supplies. I am so used to not cooking that I have to wash the dishes in between cooking to make sure I have enough pots/pans/etc.

I get to see MH tomorrow : ) And no don't worry... everything is going really good. We had two more lovely dates this weekend. He wasn't feeling well so we kept it pretty low key. Lots of snuggling on the couch. But he didn't want to share his cold so he was hestitant to kiss me. He really is just the best guy for me. I was so not trying to be all MHish... all gushy and mushy and stuff but how do I not when he is just very really wonderful. Okay, okay, I'll rein it in... : P

Good night and Bake On!

Evaluations

I have been buried in the piles of evaluations due by end of this month. {Okay breaking news, for those of you who can get a copy of this month's Library Journal, I am on page 50}

It got me thinking about ratings and reviews. I don't mind doing my self evaluation. I can be honest about what areas I need to work on or those that I excel at. Overall I am a pretty good boss. I still need to work on my responsiveness to things and consistency. I am not perfect in anything. But I don't think I ever want to be considered perfect. I prefer in the process of becoming a masterpiece. I am not even perfect in being me. Not perfect just Eve.

I feel pretty quiet tonight. I think it was the long conversation with myself in the car morning that triggered this. Occassionally I feel like a fragile piece of glass that would shatter into a thousand pieces were a loud noise to happen. Maybe fragile is the better word. After reading through some of my old journals this weekend, I got very upset with someone in them. Part of what I got upset about was because of how it changed me. I just hadn't realized how much until recently.

Good night and shhh.....

She lost my chicken

And yes, it has been that kind of day.

I decided to get lunch out. Normally I am very bad about taking my lunch. I usually wait until the end of the day. But today I braved the closest highway and headed out. It never fails... driving with me is always an adventure. The drivethru that I stopped at (I am not naming any names... just that it starts with a B and a K : ) was obviously having my kind of day. The girl handed me my Icee and salad. But she couldn't find the bag 0'chicken that was supposed to go with my salad and then she got another one but I still didn't have a straw : ) I totally understand those days so I didn't fuss.

J and P got to meet MH last night. They both had good things to say about each other once out of earshot : P I was a wee bit concerned about it but it turned out to be a really great evening. I missed getting to hang out with him one on one though. Saturday just needs to come along faster.

I was supposed to edit my last post. There was a freudian slip that was supposed to be that I fell in the zoo. Plus it's meerkats and not meekrats : ) Obviously my brain was still on my slip. I think that I will just leave the post alone. Maybe there is such a thing as a meekrat... and my slip not a slip but a fall : P

Good day and maybe the sky wasn't falling but the chicken was?

Bleech!

I think my headache is finally going away. I had come home a bit early today as I had spent most of today fighting off this lowgrade headache. It is usually pretty easy to tell when I don't feel good. I just don't act like my normal happy self. I feel like I scowled the entire day.

I think it throws off my staff too on days like today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

The weekend was great. We did low key on Saturday and then onto the Zoo on Sunday. I had forgotten what fun it is to go there and how enormous the place has gotten. It does help to go with a person you have fun with.

I remember the time P and I were running and I tripped and fell in the love. These two nice Spanish ladies came running up to check on us and we went to the zoo office. The staff were teasing us as we waited for our parents to pick us up by saying "Fresh meat for the tigers tonight. Fresh meat for the big cats"... Whenever I go to the zoo, I always have to visit the red kangeroo CJ. There were nine (I think) other kangeroos but they all got sick and died. CJ got sick too and lost part of his arm. I think he ranks as one of my favorite animals. I also like watching the otters and meekrats. But this time the otters were no where to be found and the meekrats have moved. But overall a good visit.

T and I are going to MOSH this Sunday. Oh but the class idea is tabled for now. Schedules still need to be worked out. With the way I have become more social I will have to start pencilling people in.

Good day and what would you do if you ran the zoo?

Incognito

Shhhh.... I am doing my very best to not let anyone know I am here. But failing at it miserably. I spent my lunch talking to people. So thus far I am having breakfast with Dad tomorrow, going over to J and P's tomorrow, reminding N to sign up for the stained glass class tonight and possible dinner plans with her tomorrow, and caught up with P.

Maybe I can be incognito tonight. Just a quiet night with myself and the cats. Hopefully they make it through the day okay. I had to shut them up in the bedroom as my landlord was coming over today to work on the bathroom sink. The cold has been leaking.

All I want to do currently is curl under covers and nap. Perhaps snuggle... :) But I still have to go and pay for the class before I can head home. Tonight will be a mostly turn off the phone, lock the door, leave the laptop off (mostly) and just chill night though.

I should invite N and T to the party too on the 3rd. Oh btw party on the 3rd at Mom and Dad's... I'm still working on calling people. It will be potluck and going on around 12. I told MH it will be the meet my family party... they need to meet him so should I go missing, they can pick him out in the lineup : P LOL We had a lovely time last night. But P. told me I am becoming too MH crazy so I decided to keep the gushing to a minimum. Oh so wonderful.... okay I'm done : P

Good day and don't kiss an elephant today ** It was my fortune the other night... utterly weird**

Thy Answer of the Wilted Rose

Thy hand trickles down my cheek
like a broken hearted tear.
My hearts flutters in my chest
longing to be let free, longing to fly.
It has been so long shackled
locked in a prison of my own making.
Dare I let it stand
blinking in the dawn of a new day?
I catch thine eyes of the ocean's calmness
as a laugh spills from my rosy lips,
bubbling forth like a pressure kept,
underground and treasure-laden spring.
The answer to the question lies upon
those same two petals from whence my laugh arose.
To be given with a kiss.
And thus a kiss give I.
As my heart doth soar as one unbound,
As my answer echoes yes.

**Just something I've been fiddling around with one rather lazy Friday. I've been retyping a bunch of the old stuff but this was a new work.**

He Left the Fritos

Thus ends my best set of days. I have just spend about a total of 21 hours with MH this weekend. We started with lunch and a movie yesterday. We had originally planned to go see The Night Listener but we got out of the TGIFs too late. So we ended up going to see Barnyard. It was good. Then onto Professor Plum's Mystery Playhouse where we obviously made a great team and were the only one to solve the mystery. Then back to my apartment to watch Saturday Night Live and other late night shows.

He left pretty late(or very early depending on how you look at it) and so it was late afternoon Sunday when we got together again. LOL Which actually struck me as funny because I had actually spent all night dreaming about him. LOL I didn't count it in the 21. We had already decided to have a low key afternoon of movies. He brought over a bagful and we watched Mystery Men, Little Nicky and Snatch. They were all very good. I hadn't seen any of them. I felt worse for the pawn people in Snatch. A trunk full of bodies but they never killed anyone...

I really enjoyed all the time I spent with MH this weekend. We never ran out of things to talk about. Plus he is amazingly funny and sweet. He has picked up on the fact that I love to be hugged and would hug me at random times during the night. He is looking into getting a long weekend so that we can spend it together in Universal : )

Oh and a funny thing happened Friday while unpacking delivery. We get delivery on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays at the library. It is usually a mixture of our books coming back to us or reserves that people have placed. But this time there was one envelope marked for me. I opened it only to find a smaller envelope in it and then opened that for a smaller envelope. Inside the smallest envelope was a ring. But there was no note or explanation. I figured it out quite quickly though. My friend T had complimented me on my pendant last weekend at the party. It is a tiger's eye. She had also mentioned that she had a ring of that same stone. She apparently had decided to send it via delivery : )

Before my explanation, one of my staff exclaimed that it must be an engagement ring. LMAO Okay, she is majorly jumping the gun. Poor guy... only five dates and already she's got me married off. When I explained the story to MH, he joked that so I could be bought off with cheap jewelry. Don't worry. He was teasing me and I did bop him once or possibly twice. He used to it though. I seem to do it at least once everytime we get together. I think it ties back into the whole smacking the kid you like in elementary : )

LOL Which reminds me. LOL I punched a guy I liked in sixth grade in the mouth. He had come up to me with his friends surrounding him and asked me to kiss him. Well, I think my brain must of misfired and I ended up punching him in the kisser. LMAO It didn't hurt him. I think it mainly just surprised him. Poor guy. I couldn't believe that I did that. And I wonder why I didn't have a real date til 16 : )

Good night and when they say love hurts, they aren't just whistling Dixie : P

On the Road to Recovery (Hopefully)

Feeling almost all the way better today : ) So on with the planning of the vacay... It does suck having to cancel, Christelli, but the eternally optimistic me can find a silver lining in this cloud. I have been talking it over with MH and we are talking about doing a mini vacation together and then I was thinking of taking the rest of my days and heading out on my own. After dinner with my friend N. last night (which I stubbornly went to, sick or no sick), we looked at all of her pics from Orlando trips and it got me thinking. It has been ages since I went down there. I do not want to do Disney because I have been there so many times before but Epcot or Universal or MGM might be fun to do again. I have only been to those guys only once.

So it is definitely a maybe there. Throw in the fact that it would be with MH and it is looking more and more of a yes. Wow... talk about big step (at least in my eyes)... there is so much to discuss and get settled. Part of me feels like I'm at the highest peak of the roller coaster just before the plunge. Scared out of my mind yet thrilled and excited. I mean you have to cover some serious issues such as same room, money, what you plan to do while there, etc. But it's not just vacay that got me feeling that way. I have this insane desire to see him right now. At 2:30 PM on a Friday...

Dinner with N. was great last night (being sick aside). She has a very cool family and I really enjoy hanging out with her. She is a lot of fun and we are thinking of taking stained glass classes together. I tried to get her to commit to a belly dancing class but no such luck... but she did agree to a dance class for the next term: )

Okay work calls...

Good day and ta-ta for now!

Bleech!

Why does my body decide to rebel on one of the few full days I will be at work? Only fifteen more minutes to freedom... Oh and Switzerland is off... again : P I am going to have to come up with a vacay spot. H. had responsibilites so D. is heading off to the conference by himself. I could still go but I really wanted someone to pal around with during the day and he will be conferencing... I still have the time off and I want a vacation. Any suggestions, dears? But the only way to get over that blah is to plan the next European vacation... can we say September 2007? So be there or be sitting at home in underwear : )

Good day and quell the rebellion : P

The Long Drive Here

I have one of my single longest drive to and from work each day. It is probably about 40 minutes at least one way. So what do I do on my long drive? I tend to do a lot of thinking, talking, praying and singing. For a time, I was also learning French in my car. I do need to get back to that I think.

This morning's drive was especially thought-filled for some reason. In that short span of 40 minutes, I had wondered about culture, art, civilization, becoming a man or woman, law, and what to bake for my next neighborhood meeting. I ponder quite a bit (insert bit of "The Wanderer" but change to ponderer for comic relief : ) At first I started out with becoming a man or woman and culture. I pondered exactly how culture and civilization came about. I pondered what it takes to change a culture. I pondered how art is defined. I pondered on exactly how laws come to be and how intertwined they are with the culture that you live in. And then at last I decided that my pondering was just a wee bit too much for the morning and finished it off with the baking ponder.

No, I hadn't just come off a PBS bender. It was all things that just came to me this morning. Occassionally I can trace a thought pattern backwards and figure out how it all started. But not today's...

My weekend was great! I had to work all Saturday and was monumentally busy. It did make the day go by quite fast. Sunday was wonderful. I love hanging out with my family. They are just so wonderfully wonderful and weird. I love how much we laugh together. Families should do that more.

I went into work slightly crabby on Monday. The only thing I could figure as to why and once I said it, it was unfortunately true. I think I missed seeing MH over the weekend. He didn't attend the family thing on Sunday because I didn't relay to him that he was invited in time plus we already had P's guy coming. We're trying to stagger the number of guys brought home to meet the fam. But then I get to see him Saturday so I am hurrying the week along.

Tuesday was slammed with meetings. I was barely actually at my branch for maybe 2 hours out of a workday. But I am hopeful about the focus group meeting we had the other day. I see such potential for libraries. It would be cool to apply the credo of "What could we achieve if we could not fail" to the library world. But I am an odd optimist. Odd because I am and because I see such potential and I believe utopia is possible.

Good day and la vie est bonne!

Busy as a Bee

I'm finally getting to enjoy some quietness today. Today was all about busy. We have lost one employee to a transfer and the other was out for a family thing. Thus it was just me and one other person. It was a quick day though which is always a good thing. I spent pretty much the whole day on desk. It 's not so bad though. It just means dealing with people all day too.

I have been going over my poems and journals from the last couple of years. They have proven to be pretty interesting. I've kept some form of journal since about the eighth grade and my thoughts are as always serious and silly and very amusing. One of the things I found was my journal entry the day after the 9/11 attacks. A lot of it was just writing it down for rememberance. Though not the kind of day that one just forgets. I will never fully comprehend the kind of mindset or hate that one needs to commit acts of violence. Violence only begats more violence. And if so, where does one draw the line? How do you even begin to stop?

One of the other things I found in these writings were a number of story ideas. I had completely forgotten about them. Only one of them has been fully developed into a children's book though. Most of them were starts of chapters and character sketches. One of my favorites was the short story that was to be about a niceness contest done at a high school. It was going to be written in journal format and from the point of view of one of the contestants and all the mean things she did to win.

I took my kitten to the vet yesterday. Henri appears to be doing a lot better. No more getting sick today. Evil cat just had to appear all healthy when we were in the vet. It is all part of his maniacal plan to make me appear insane. But I am glad he is doing better. He was not a happy cat on the way there or back. He yowled and he is normally not a vocal cat. But he is home and on his way to being healthy. I will just have to put up with the battle scars from trying to give him his meds. I did better today as I used the towel to wrap him in.

Date number four was good as all of them have been. We went to see Pirates of the Carribean 2 and then to a late dinner at Steak and Shake. S & S was out of ketchup and shakes which made for humourous discussions of why it was out. The best one we came up with was the disgruntled employee. You can not have steak without ketchup and shakes.... well, without shakes : ) Way to bring down the business, you rebel you : P It was late going home so I tended as usual to get a little silly.

All right, lovelies. It is getting late and I should hit the hay as I have partying to do tomorrow : )

Good night and when in doubt, pet a cat.

PS. M, it is incredibly good to hear from you in a manner of speaking. Expect a holler this week...I have so much to tell you and so very much to hear from you. Love you beyond much!

The Shade of Cotton Candy

There's not much business today. I think everyone is out eeking the last bit of summer out of their summer. But our stats for the month were fabulous... over 3,000 people came in our doors just for this month. Major coolness. With the slow day comes the ability (normally) to get a ton of stuff done. I have been mainly working on stats and schedules. But for some reason I keep getting distracted... which will be explained shortly. Overall it has been a busy week. I had to do interviews on Monday. We're promoting one of our parttime people to full time. I think she is going to do just brillantly with the change.

So we are planning this very typical throw together get together at my parents' house this Sunday. It should be very cool as P and hopefully T will be there. P is thinking of bringing her guy and I need to talk to MH about it. I want it to be out there as an offer and not a requirement. Especially as this is not something he can recipocrate with as his family is over a 1,000 miles away. I usually have gotten along with my guy's parents in the past though.

My distraction stems from the large vase of a dozen long stemmed blush pink roses which are sitting in my office. I keep staring at them as if I expect that one second I'll look away and they'll be gone. He was late on Saturday so I requested flowers. But LOL I was thinking 3/10.00 Publix flowers next time he saw me... not these beautiful filling my office with rose scent flowers. I'm still a bit speechless about them. They are very much like him... unexpected. My whole plan was to not like him too much too fast and he is making increasingly difficult.

Good day and I blushed more than the roses.

It's either the guy or the pizza...

It is wicked early Wednesday morning (a little after one am) and I can't get to sleep. The minute I get quiet and settled at any point during these last couple of days, I begin to think about what I have thought about for the last couple of days.

I can not decide if this sleeplessness is a result of these thoughts or the fact that I accidentally ordered two pizzas. They were good but I have the strong suspicion that if I actually were to finish the pizzas I would never again be able to look a pizza pie in the crust ever again.

Okay so the thoughts are four in nature. Two are for future reference for MH and the other two are current reference. I was planning on sitting him down on Wednesday and sharing with him all four. But if I write about it now, he'll just have advance notice. Oh well... The first was to tell him how much our third date talk meant to me. My dating self confidence took a swan dive with my last serious relationship. For the last several weeks of it, I could tell something was wrong but had no idea if what I did hindered or helped the situation. That has really made me question myself in the area of dating. But it really relieved me when we talked. That was the main jist of the first current reference. Throw some stuff in about how wonderfully wonderful he is and you got me talking first point.

The second point was to find out whether or not he would be willing to see me twice in one week. We had made plans to get together for a low key something on either Wednesday or Thursday. I am supposed to call him and let him know what day. I am currently leaning towards Wednesday since that will mean getting to see him tomorrow but if I go with Thursday, the work pressure is off of me at least since I am off Friday. So me and my brillance came up with " What about Wednesday and Thursday?". But me and my dating self confidence were a bit concerned on how he would take that suggestion.

LOL I was talking to someone today about baggage. Some of us have carry ons and others have full six piece matching sets : ) Ugh... it is really carry on....

So from my wondering head to yours...or from my wondering head to God's... Worry about nothing. Pray about everything.

I had a wonderful lunch with two of the other branch managers. They are just hysterically funny. I am glad that they were in my training. Yes, by the way, I now am going to add online reference to my vast knowledge bank of skills. Oh and I am about to be publish in Library Journal. Nothing fancy... just a case study that I responded to. But it is a national magazine for librarians : )

First LJ then the world (manicial laughter inserted here)...LOL

Goodnight and just you wait.... I'll get you my pretty, you and your little blog too...(wicked cackle inserted)