Clunker

That's me. Okay so I thought that my dental woes would soon be over. First, they were going to do a crown. Then they needed to do a crown lengthening.

Now there is a wisdom tooth that needs to be removed so that they can get to the tooth to do the lengthening. It was like I was the old clunker you take in for one thing and everytime they try to fix one thing, there is another to be fixed.

After all this I may need the valium they are going to give me for the surgery : P

Good day and please dear Lord don't forget to floss.

Nerves, nerves and more nerves

Someone mentioned to me today how surprised they were that April was almost over. To me, it can't get to the end soon enough. This has been a roller coaster month. So many highs and lows that I need a day off.

I took today but it was more for my dental work stuff. He got the old filling out and then realized I didn't have enough teeth left to attach the crown to so thus I got a referral for an oral surgeon. He will do two crown lengthenings and then I get my two crowns. After that it is mainly care and maintenence. It will be such a relief. I was very nervous today. Especially after they said they were doing it without any numbing. Eeek was my first thought.

One of our highs was Simba. Our new almost 3 month old kitty.

She was very skittish when she first came out of the carrier. But as you can tell she has really relaxed.

B has also had a lot on his plate. He helped create a training for his office and has also been dealing with supervisors switching. It just drains him. He has such strength. He spends all day listening to people who are sick and trying to get them help. I am amazed. He is very cute and very enamoured over Simba. He has just put in for two positions. One is here and the other in Washington. As we walked at Mrs. White's yesterday, we discussed our plans for retirement. Grant you it is like 30 years to plan but I like to have discussions now : P I am just so excited to have him.

Good day and have a silly day.

In contrast

I just finished reading H's blog. Hers was a lovely day.

Mine was not so lovely. And lovely at the same time. I got very frustrated with B. today. Nothing seemed to go like I planned. I planned to get Bill Cosby tickets and they closed the site just as I was trying to decide my seat. I got frustrated with B because he said Let's go to St. Augustine and so I looked into going here and there. In the end, he then said he wasn't feeling well and told me I was too confusing.

The lovely part comes in here. Even though we confused each other and frustrated each other, we still talked and he told me in a nutshell that he would love me confusing and frustrating because that was still me and he loves me. I love him for that. Even though he is confusing and frustrating too.... : D

It is still so weird to have this other person to consider. I am just so used to just doing what I want to do whenever I want to do it. But I wouldn't have it any other way : P

Bonne nuit and sleep well.

I could a drinking a case of you.

I have felt myself consumed this day. And not in a good way. Simple courtesy and good parenting are rare examples that I see every once in a while.

I have seen too many times where a parent gets on the computer and totally ignores the children she brought in with her. Or tells them to shut up. I can think very hard and I don't recall a time where my parents told me to shut up. Then there was an example of a person trying to help another person and about getting their head bitten off. I know that it appeared that the person being helped was just on their last limbs and it just so happened that this was a last straw happening.

I know that it reminds me of when I read Postsecret I want to cry and laugh and get angry all at the same time. I couldn't let this feeling go. Even when I went home for lunch. I usually can and it helps me get through the day.

I just want to hug the world. All I can do is have faith and pray. I feel like I was a full cup and today was my last drop to hold. I wish I could give everyone my glasses. For you all to see what wonderous beautiful people you all are. I am constantly amazed at you all. The smarts, the compassion, the joy, the kindness, the capacity for so much... in those that I talk to daily, think of, live with, am related to, am friends with...

Good night and look through my eyes.