Saturday, January 06, 2007

an umbrella ambles on London's classic park theatre

So after much pondering and talking (thanks Christelli! Even wishy-washy opinions helped : ), I think I will stay here if possible. I just need to take a good look at what I want this library to be. I've got a good base. Now I want it to be a shining topper...

Outside of that, I am still taking in the new year. The thing I am working on now is continuing the getting healthy plan and working on time management. I have recently seen myself as a masterpiece in the making. It wasn't always like that. I used to be very down on myself. It was like a whole other person inside my head always making me feel horrible. It sounds crazy I know but it was very much like that to me. I just never thought I was good enough.

I don't remember what was the catalyst to make myself stop putting myself down. I just know now what are my strengths and what are the things I need to work on and what are the things I just have to let go of. I love having new things to discover about myself.

What makes this post even weirder is I have been indulging on an America's Next Top Model Marathon. You might think that it might make you feel worse watching these incredibly beautiful girls but it is so cool to see what they see as flaws or sensitive issues. Everyone got one. For me it has always been the weight. I am very bad at snacking when I am upset or bored or tired. Or not stopping when I am full. Right now it is not so much losing weight as it is getting healthier or making better choices. I screw up all the time but I try to learn from my mistakes. Okay removing self from soapbox.... even funnier if you read Dad's posting : P

Good day and stay healthy!

1 comment:

Christielli said...

Glad that you were able to make your decision.

I am also working on a lot of things this new year. But, I'm trying to take it one step at a time instead of attempting a bajillion changes with no success.