Now for the so-so

I got sick last weekend. It wasn't pretty. And for Sunday and Monday, I couldn't really sleep. Not because of being sick but it felt like my heart was pounding. No matter whether I was walking around the apartment or trying to rest, it felt like it was racing. I'd take my pulse and it would be fine but it still felt like a pounding in my chest.

The week before I had felt really run down and felt a little short of breath but felt better with the vacay so I just chalked it up to nerves or stress.

I finally told B about it Tuesday after I made a doctor's appointment. We went and pulse and blood pressure was fine. When I told her about being sick, she thought it might have been dehydration. So lots of fluid that day and since. It feels more normal. But she did schedule for me to have a portable heart monitor for Monday and Tuesday just to check and make sure.

When she told me that, I smiled a bit. See, when I went to see Grandfather the last time, they did something similiar to him and he was all excited about it. He even wanted me to take a picture of him in it. I wouldn't make B do that but I'm sure I will think of him Monday.

What was even funnier was the fact that I took Basil (one of our cats) into the vet and pretty much we had the same tests done (sans the heart monitor). But we got tested for thryoid and found out we both have very slight heart mummurs.

The hardest thing is trying not to read up on heart related diseases. This would be the one time reading would stress me and not relieve my stress.

Good night and stay cool, boy...

I've had the good...

Beloved and I on a surrey (horse and carriage)

Me at the port

Shots from the Glass Bottom Boat

More scenes... they told us we were right above a wreck.... not exactly reassuring with sharks below...

Nuf' said

Beloved on the Fascination

Look, honey... a manatee!

I ordered a special Happy Anniversary decorations package for the room : D

When I can't think of anything else...

1.YOUR REAL NAME: Eve Harm
2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle name) Mae Wilson
3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) Jack Zade
4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your firstname) Harsm
5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal) Rainbow Cat
6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born) Mercy Jacksonville
7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Blue Thai Iced Tea
8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name) Have
9.ROCK STAR NAME:(current pets name, current street name) Basil Oak
10. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you lived when born) Noddon 59th
11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) Eveizzle
12.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, firsttwo letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last threeletters of your last name) Vrmevehar
13.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets) Black Hazel
14. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume, fav candy) Sunflowers Chocolate

They let me have 30 minutes more

I love my kitties but they are driving me bonkers. Henri decided to put his entire fuzzy blanket into the water bowl this morning. And Basil spent 30 minutes sitting on me trying to get me up. I got a magnet the other day that said "There is no snooze button for a cat who wants breakfast". Tell me about it.... Though it has kept me on track with the getting up a little early to work out. I actually did an entire week. Which trust me, for me, that is awesome.

In other news, the lady that owns the townhouse we are renting is selling the place. We are still okay til June but wow... I think we half expected it. I think the realtor was also kind of feeling me out for the possibility that we might want it. But we don't want to buy anything right now. I know that there are great deals now but not if he gets a permenant job in say Cleveland. Then we become the people trying to sell in this market. No thanks!

Only 6 days til the cruise. I am so looking forward to it. Just time alone with B and I . No cats, no work, just relaxing. We have an inside cabin again. As nice it is to have natural light, I love sleeping in complete darkness. It justs makes for a hard sleep.

Good day and a man walks into a bar....ouch! LOL

Do the Motions or the Solution?

Today, they came again. I know. Sounds like the start of a great sci-fi novel. But no, it was just the glass people. This time, the person they sent was C and he decided not to leave until my leak was fixed. Finally someone who saw beyond the work.

It took a bit of fiddling but he tested it three or four times and my car didn't leak. Holy Hannah! I don't know if it will hold but it did make me feel slightly (begrudingly) better about the company.

I have to remember C and his lesson of do the solution. I hear the same thing day in and day out. And they are just like me. I just wanted a solution. It takes a bit to get there but it can be done.

I also got to do a storytime today. My second in the last two weeks. Trust me, after months of nada, this is like butter.... : P I really enjoyed it and the kids seemed to as well. We talked a bit about Black History Month. And peace. Todd Par has a book called the Peace Book. He talks about what peace is... you know peace is hugging a friend or keeping the streets clean or pizza enough for everyone in the world. Who knew pizza was another world for peace? Hmmm... Pizza Hut ambassadors? It is interesting to be talking about how alike we are but how special at the same time.

I get so busy sometimes that I forget to remind myself about my specialness. I have a special way of reading. I change my voice and movements to match the story. I have a special talent for talking to all sorts of people. I have a special way of looking at the world. I have a special voice and brain that can remember all sorts of weird and interesting facts. Did you know you can not sneeze with your eyes open? Or that nothing rhymes with orange?

Good night and enjoy the coolness of me and of you.

Despise, Hate or Frustated

I can't decide which word fits how I feel about SAG. My back window was broken totally on December 31st. I went with the company that the insurance guys went with. Well, tomorrow will be the third time this month that they are coming to fix my car. The seal isn't right. When it gets wet, it drips all into the trunk.




We had a heavy rain last night and I came out to a trunk half covered in half an inch of water. I took off part of this morning to go get a cover that I could put on the car. See, everyone I called said that they couldn't fix it today because of the rain. But had it not rained, I wouldn't have known that there was still a problem. I feel Noah-ish today. It is all about the flood. I just have to keep telling myself that no rain means no rainbows. Even though today I feel a bit drowned in trouble and sorrow.

Good day and remember rainbows.

Retirement Ready

I did something today that smacks me sideways with its adultness.

I set up an IRA. I have been pondering on it for a bit. I haven't had any plan for retirement until now. I haven't really thought about it.

It is the future. I think of it as the Future. As it is this island out in the Pacific somewhere that I will eventually maybe end up on. Right now I am thinking of the omlette I had for dinner just about 30 minutes ago. Not my life in 30 years. I look at it the same way I do public speaking. That it will never happen. : ) They couldn't possible want me to speak. Oh no, it's happening and I know I planned but it could never be enough.

The only future I see right now and have seen ever is B. I see us two white haired fools. Him still hugging me just as he does now and me teasing him just as I do now.

He may have to go away in mid summer. For a week. His boss volunteered him for the mission of going to another district office and checking over their work. I asked him to put in for Washington DC. He wants me to come with. And I want to come with. I haven't been away from him since we started living together.

Oh and speaking of away, it is planned. We are cruising again in February. YAY! Major major YAY! We are both looking forward to it as an anniversary thing. I had hoped that we would be able and we are going to the Bahamas again. I am hoping this can become our February thing. Just because we both enjoy it so much.

Good night and look forward.

Dream a little Dream

So last night as I was almost falling asleep, I was still talking. I do that a lot. Once when I was sleep talking, I told B. that I wanted to live in a monkey house. Not a house full of monkeys but one shaped like a huge monkey. I don't have any idea of where that came from.



Last night, B reminded me of it again and said that it didn't have to be made of monkeys. For some odd reason, that comment set me just a-gigglin' like crazy. I laughed harder when I heard myself and even harder still when I could feel him laughing beside me. LMAO doesn't justify this giggle fest.



I did finally get to sleep afterwards. I dreamed that I was in Tokoyo. I was wandering around the city center which apparently I was very familiar with. I realized that I was graduating (with what I still don't know). But the graduation gown I had on was white with gold lettering and only covered my shoulders like a small cape. I was walking through a beautiful garden filled with pink and white flowers and then I was walking through this cloud to a subway station. I didn't know where I was. I got on one of the subway cars and we made our way down to the ground. We would circle lower and lower like an airplane descent and just when I would let go of the breath I was holding it would plummet like on a roller coaster. The older Japanese couple sitting across from me watching me intently and would smile slightly when I would squeak and hold tight during the roller coaster part.

Very Eveish.

Good night and no more sushi before bed : P

Feeling Better

It has been one thing after another. Between being sick, getting glass broke, getting sick again, having to fight through crazy people with a detour, and being fussed at by neighbors, it has not started off as a good year.

But happy notes are still around. B is still wonderful. T and I are working on taking a class on Thursdays. Floral arranging. It looked pretty cool and anything I can do to be creative is a good thing. Work has been good too. Now that the holidays are over and I finally am feeling good, I feel like actually doing work. I am looking into asking an Asian Alliance group to do a presentation about Asia and the Lunar New Year. Plus I am more than halfway done with my weeding of the children's non-fiction. It has taken a while but I am plugging away at it little by little.

I took H out to lunch the other day to celebrate her finishing her certification for nails and skin care. Her official title is a long word I can't remember. It was really nice sitting down with her. I am glad she is my sister. We ate at a new restaurant (well, for me) Five Guys Burgers and Fries. It was good.

I have already begun to look at apartments online. I am definitely ready to move. I know that there are two things I need to do before that. I am ready for more windows for one. I miss windows. We are in a condo with windows on the front and back but are sandwiched between two other units. Oh well. May needs to come soon.

Good day and be well.

A difference in 18 hours

I thought it was ice. I thought it had gotten cold enough to ice over my car's back windshield.

Then I got closer. It wasn't ice. My back windshield was shattered. I drove it home at 6 pm and at 12 noon the next day as we were going out to leave to go to lunch, I saw the damage. Something or someone has damaged my car. It was so bad that we closed the doors, the window started to almost buckle.

I was a bit shocked to say the least. But B, T and myself went out to lunch. And then home again to call the insurance. I have never called before. Insurance is one of those things you have and hope never to use.

There is no clue as to how it happened. Firecrackers, bullet, hammer... it could be any or none at all. It was definitely something with force behind it. It left a hole in the window and broke a hole in the plastic piece of the backseat. I hope when the guys come out to fix it to have a better idea. I personally think it was someone with a huge Hello Kitty hate : )

And on the positive side, I'd rather my car be smashed than me or mine. Plus I get to ride with Mark for the next day or so. More time with hubby is always a positive.

Good day and watch out.

A New Year's A-coming

Well, here it is. The last day of the year 2008. It was my best year to date. I got B this year : D

As far as I know, the plans for this eve are fairly low key. We had talked about going to a movie. Or staying in. We both got toys that we have been enjoying recently.

I got a DS and a new game in the mail the other day. And B got Fallout 3 ( a computer game) from his brother. I am wearing my birthday necklace from J today. It is an amethyst butterfly. It combines our two loves.. amethyst for me and butterflies for her.

I am glad to be feeling better finally. I still have a slight cough but it is very slight. I am hoping to get to make cookies this weekend. With the cold, I thought it would be poor form to send cold germs via cookies to Michigan. Not to mention sharing the cold germs via cookies at our works.

I do think in the next place that I need a nice big kitchen. Though I really like having the passthrough. We have begun to talk about moving. Each place gets better than the next. So by time we buy, we will know exactly what we want and what we do not. Stairs are on the do not list. We both just too clumsy for them : P Plus I can't imagine that they would be good for kids. Not that we are there yet, people but it is a consideration in the next couple of years.

I've got to keep up with working on the weight before that happens. I'll take another look at the community ed paper for that. I need something fun and kind of dancy. Plus T wants to take a look at classes too. I think it would be fun to do something with her. She is beyond awesome. She is definitely in the fantabulous range : )

Good day and best of all years for us all.

Ode to Me

December 22nd. I came into the world and the world has never recovered : P

It was a good day then as now. I was finally feeling a bit better from my horrible cold. I got sung to at least three times including by a lion. My dad told me I was precious. B made me cry.

No, not in a bad way people. Since my birthday was on a Monday and he had me open my gifts last Friday, I asked him to get me flowers.

This is what I got. It was lovely. But the thing that made me cry was the piece of paper. I share most thing with you people but this was my own little treasure.

Overall, a lovely day.

I am 33 if you were wondering. I don't really care about the number. It is just that. I don't feel any oder or wiser. Except now I have to start my next plans after peace on earth (Thanks, T : )

Hmmm.... world domination has a nice ring to it. Maybe I'll start on that.

Good day and bow to my dominion foolish humans.... ummm maybe not....doesn't feel too Evieish.

My meant to be Devotions

We had our Christmas get-together yesterday. I love getting together with my family. Even though part of me wished to crawl under covers and sleep til Monday. I have been blessed with a gnarly cold. I am a stubborn person especially when it comes to being sick. I can not stand when I can not do what I want to do.

I had worked slightly on a devotion for our party. It was something that kind of struck me. I had wanted to do it for Dad. He always get stuck doing the devotions. I think sometimes it is a love to do/hate to do kind of thing. And I know that sometimes he stresses out about them. Even though he always does such a phenomenal job. So I wanted to take a stress off him. But being so sick and somewhat overwrought, I couldn't.

So here's what I had. I was going to have each person read a part. And then put the paper flipped over in the middle of the table. On the back, it would read Ch, ri, s, t, is, h, e, r, e

Mary: I was there, thoughtful and faithful. I went through things none had ever been through then or since. But I believed.

Joseph: I was there, supporting my wife. I believed her and God. We traveled far to come to the land of my birth. I would be there for his birth but his death would give all new life.

Shepherd: I was there, in awe and joyous. Everything that the angel told us came true. How could we stop from praising God for all the wondrous things we saw? And still see to this day.

Angel: I was there, praising and a messenger. Spreading the good news that this day would be born a savior. Even into this mortal flesh with all its pain and sorrow, how could one not but sing to his glory?

Star: I was there, shining a way to the Lord. Much like his Word still shines a way to him too.

Wise Men: I seek what all men seek. Salvation. Love. For all my gifts, his was greater still.

Ass: I was there. What was my burden of his mother to the burden for which he would carry even unto his death?

Innkeeper: I was there. How hectic a time was that? People stuck in every which how and place, only to find more on my doorstep looking for room. Imagine your house full to the gills. A man has to turn someone away. Yet how many more turn from him now?

Christ: I am here.

Christmas. Christ mass.

All those there for this one defining event. All those there to play a part. All crowded and around this singular person. Christ. Everything revolves around him. As it should now.

Then as now, there are so many things pulling away from Christ. Mothers, husbands, things to be gotten and given, messages to receive and get, seekers, burdens and hectic times.

But in the end, all that falls away and he is left. He is the pure grain when all the chaff is worn away. The Messiah. The Savior. That which all men seek and all may find. Amen.

Good night and find him.

Whisper Quiet

That is me right now. I lost my voice yesterday and am feeling a bit better now. I am up for no voice to whisper.

But plus side, I did get a flu shot back about a month ago. Where is my cold shot though?

B. stayed home with me yesterday. He took me to the doctor too. He is really sweet about me being sick. Every time I tried to talk, he would stop me and hand me a pad of paper and a pen.

My kids and I got to go to the Jags game the other day. They had a blast. I am so glad for them. Overall they are really good kids and they deserve good things.

We decorated the tree on Saturday. We had gotten a faux one because I was concerned about the cats. I was sure that Henri would have drunk all the water out of the bottom. But outside of some sniffing, they haven't paid it too much mind. Which is a bit of a relief. They were much more interested in the step ladder I pulled out to put the star on the top. One would sit under it and bat at the person on the top of it. LOL

We also put up all of the stockings. Okay, so we just happen to have kitty stockings. And two people ones. There is a plain red stocking and a Hello Kitty one. I bet you can't guess which one is mine : )

Good day and here's to a hopefully speech filled tomorrow.

Hard Week

And it was. We only have five staff ( three fulltime and two partime). But we were down a full time and a parttime all week and the remaining parttime only came in two hours at the end of the night. So for six hours every day, it was just L and I. The worst day was Monday. I was still feeling the effects of being sick on Sunday. And if I left it would just be L and I just couldn't do that if possible.

I made it through.

I have a couple of errands to run today but mainly I get to stay home. It is a nice play to be. I have one more CSI book and several more Anne of Green Gables to read. Huzzah.

Good day and happy homes.

House of Capone and Mouse

Pluto
Show at Capone's

Miss Jewel and Bunny

A show at the local speakeasy

Mouse ears on my head and a cat shirt: D

Beloved and I in front of the Haunted Mansion

Cinderella's Castle

Beloved in front of Cinderella's place

Me in front of Cinderella's

Pipe band

Mickey is just everywhere including the wreaths... sheesh!

Daisy

Brass Walt with Minnie

In front of Capone's

We had such a great time spending time with our extended family of Capone and Disney : P B had never been so it was really cool getting to show him around. We kept it really low key and just wandered. It was a bit busy but not insane. And we now have a new oranament from it. That has been our tradition since we started becoming serious. Anywhere we go, we always pick up an oranament. LOL But I didn't pull them out until yesterday. The only Christmas thing I have done before Thanksgiving was buy presents. I even refused to listen to the one station that has been playing Christmas music since Halloween.

Good day and good day : P

Moments

Yesterday I did a storytime for some preschoolers. As I left, I reminded them to remember their wobble. We had just done a rhyme about a turkey whose head goes wobble, wobble. So I told them bye and some of them yelled back "Bye Mrs. Wobble" : D

I never left a gas station so fast the other night coming home. I left even before putting on my seatbelt. Which is so not me. But a truck had pulled up at the next pumping station. The guy got out and he was the reason I left so fast. Not only was he smoking a cigerette while pumping but the car was on. I thought why not be talking on your cell so you can for sure blow us all up. Craziness.

B and I are heading down state to the house of Mouse for Turkey day. I am looking forward to just kicking back and relaxing. He has never been to any of the Disney theme parks and would like to visit them before we leave Florida. We have a little while on that front.

Good day and Happy Thanksgiving all you turkeys.

I was Electrocuted

Voluntarily I might add. I have been having some numbness in my foot recently and so my doctor scheduled a nerve study. Basically they test both legs by shocking the nerve to test its timing.


Thank goodness I had J and T around for it. T drove us there and back and knew what I was going through. J went in with me and let me hold onto her for support. I don't think I would have made it through but for those two.

I had thought it wouldn't be so painful. Man, was I wrong. Parts of it were tolerable but others... shiver... And the thing about the numbness is that there really isn't any pain : P

LOL I just kept thinking of this thing I had read in a science book when I was younger. It was about this French guy who applied current to frog's leg. Not to a frog just to their legs and how he thought he was bringing them to life because they kept twitching. The thought of "I'm just like that frog" kept popping in my head. Plus J made me laugh with her idea of a cheap version of a Cabbage Patch doll. She wants to call it Baby Coleslaw.

She may have questionable ideas. But she was wonderful yesterday. She even offered to beat the guy up who was causing my pain. Just like we were growing up. I am so lucky to have a great sis.

Good day and J and T rock.!

Yesterday

Yesterday, I told B that I wasn't sure what to write. It had been a really nice day off but we really hadn't done much. So he asked me to write about my wonderful husband.... It's kind of like a love letter the whole world might read : P


B is the man I prayed for. I used to pray to God that I would finally find someone who would get me. I am one strange and crazy person so God sent me B. I love him more than an infinity of words. I love being with him and ye Gods, do we laugh. I love how he loves me even with all my insanity and silliness. One time, I decided to test myself. I tried to imagine how I would feel if he weren't in my life. I felt like someone had ripped my heart out of my chest. Or like I could never smile again. In a way, it surprised me. I had known that I loved him but not realized how intensely. He is the only man I wanted to marry and could see myself with at 90. I think about how I love him all throughout the day. And every morning I receive a hug and a kiss. He is so incredibly smart but he knows how to be silly too. I could write I love you a trillion times and that wouldn't say even a tenth of how much I love my husband. It is still so strange to be man and wife... I am not used to it yet. But a lot of the time it feels just right. In his arms, it feels like home. It is amazing.

Good day and je t'adore Marc!

More Pics

The scariest gift of the night.... Xmas Kitties!
Totally a look of horror on both our faces : D

The Three Stooges

Elise and Mel

Either you pay the fines or we send you to these two....