Life seems to be settling down just a wee bit here. I just spent the weekend with B. We went to the Professor Plum's Murder Mystery Playhouse for dinner and then Dave & Buster's for lunch the next day. All in all, I had a great weekend. But then weekends with him are always good.
I got mad at him this weekend. But he is getting a crash course in me and I had to explain to him that it isn't always what he thinks is wrong is what is making me mad. It is all a matter of perception. He says something, I interpret it my way and get upset. Upset is not really the right word though. I don't cry and yell or anything like that. I just get quiet and kind of stop talking. But if he asks, I will explain. It is a good thing that we talk about it. It makes the relationship more real I think. More substance. I remember reading once that you are in love with someone because and you love someone although.
He is this amazing wonderful flawed person but that is good because so am I. It is hard to imagine how much my life has changed in the last couple of months. It is still becoming balanced. We won't be seeing each other until Saturday this week. The whole missing seeing him kind of sneaks up on me. I just don't expect it. But then the whole love thing surprises me too. It was not what I was thinking when I agreed to a first date. In truth, I was still fairly afraid of being in love. It was a big risk. But I think of how I feel when he holds me and it makes it worth it.
Good night and smile at the person sitting next to you at the stoplight.
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