Just in case you were wondering, I have not a)joined a cult b)been buried under my boxes since the move-in or c)carried off by kittens to become their new human god.
I have just had so much life going on that it became impossible to blog it all. I have survived moving, new boyfriend living here, Christmas and soon to be a new year. I did have a totally lovely birthday and Christmas though. B. took me sailing and it was a joyous experience. It remeinded me of a rollercoaster without all the heights. Afterwards we went to Columbia, a Spanish style restaurant and the waitress brought me a birthday flan. Funky but yummy! We then went to see Happy Feet at the local IMAX theatre. : ) All things which I had not done yet but it was a blast doing all three.
Christmas was goodish this year. We went over to D and H's new house. They were just great hosts and fab people for taking up the role that Mom and Dad normally take up. I got so major cool stuff and had a great time just hanging out with my family. I really didn't make a chance to talk to H's family but I am sure this isn't the only time we will do something with them. I missed getting to hang out with P though. We had made plans to do stockings like we did last year. But she was too sick to come up. Hence we surprised her with a Santa visit of us.
There is more going on with her. I am going to give her a call tomorrow to return her call of the other day. I mainly wanted to give myself a day or so of buffer time. I knew already how I had reacted when I finally got home to B. He gave me a hug and I just broke down crying. I remember how hard it was for me that first time. She is my favorite little sister and I love her to pieces. Whenever I think back to that time, it flashes in my head how she looked coming out of the emergency room where they had pumped her stomache because of the things she had taken. Those were the deadest eyes I had ever seen and she barely could tell who we were. I told her for her twenty-six birthday that she was the best say no to drugs example I had ever seen. I just don't want her or me to have to go through that again.
So with everything going on, I haven't really had a chance to fully explore how the whole living with someone is going. I'm still settling into the house and it just doesn't feel like my place yet. But then we haven't really gotten up all of the personal stuff up yet. I am really looking forward to this weekend. We both have a fairly long one and it will be our first weekend of just us and nothing else going on. It is funny but I feel like I saw him more when I was in my own place : ) But I do like the fact that he has stuff going on outside of the house. B. is a wonderful guy but I so crave my alone time to recharge. Right now I just get annoyed with having all the stuff everywhere. But we made dinner together tonight and I have staked out Wednesday as our night. : ) I love that he is such a huggy guy : )
Good night and renew a right spirit within me.
Save the Whales.... Collect the Whole Set! Quirky and Serious Musings of Me, A Quirky and Not So Serious Girl
Friday, December 29, 2006
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Life Interuptus
That, my dear bloggers, is what I am suffering from... I am on a countdown to moving day. I will be picking up my stuff (well techniqually it's two guys and a truck that will be picking it up) and moving to a house. It isn't MY house but I am renting it. Plus half of it is B's who has already proved himself an even more wonderful guy.
Last Saturday after much packing and moving o'things, I hopped on the ladder to change out a lightbulb. On my way off of the ladder, I had a back spasm. Imagine a charlie horse but on your back. I must have yelled or something because B heard me and came out to help me down. I spent the next three days in bed. It is getting back day by day but not nearly fast enough for me. But B has been just beyond great. He took care of me for two of the days but had to head back to work on the third. Just being the best of all B's though he has had to resist the temptation to make jokes like how many Eves does it take to change a lightbulb :)
It has definitely put a crimp in my packing but I am all scheduled for next Friday being my moving day. The day after J, P and I have a sister's day planned to celebrate J and my birthdays. Hers is the nineteenth and mine is the twenty second. I'll be 31 years young for all those curious peoples. I've never been one to hide my age. It is just a number and a state of mind. Plus I've done in 31 years some things people never do in a lifetime : ) Woot!
Good night and all life is yours to miss.
Last Saturday after much packing and moving o'things, I hopped on the ladder to change out a lightbulb. On my way off of the ladder, I had a back spasm. Imagine a charlie horse but on your back. I must have yelled or something because B heard me and came out to help me down. I spent the next three days in bed. It is getting back day by day but not nearly fast enough for me. But B has been just beyond great. He took care of me for two of the days but had to head back to work on the third. Just being the best of all B's though he has had to resist the temptation to make jokes like how many Eves does it take to change a lightbulb :)
It has definitely put a crimp in my packing but I am all scheduled for next Friday being my moving day. The day after J, P and I have a sister's day planned to celebrate J and my birthdays. Hers is the nineteenth and mine is the twenty second. I'll be 31 years young for all those curious peoples. I've never been one to hide my age. It is just a number and a state of mind. Plus I've done in 31 years some things people never do in a lifetime : ) Woot!
Good night and all life is yours to miss.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
I shocked my kitties...
Yes, that's it. They were surprised I do believe. By what? : ) Yesterday when I pulled into my drive (aka Driveway of Death) and was parking, there were two little strays laying on the pavement closest to the other apartments. They were so skinny and skittish. Now I hate seeing skinny kitties. Actually any strays in general. I just don't get why people get their cats fixed. I listened to Bob Barker so why didn't they?
So I went inside where my kitties had semi fullish bowls and opened up the plastic bin where I keep their food. Basil was all around my feet meowing like crazy. Even though there was food down : P I grabbed a scoop of food and took it outside. Well, seeing me walk OUT with food made them (Basil, Hazel and Henri my kitties) crowd the window... they just didn't understand what I was doing with THEIR food. I was feeding other kitties. The inkittinessness of it all... When I came back in, they were all meowing at me. Obviously trying to get some handle on what had just happened. LOL
Good day and pet a kitty today!
So I went inside where my kitties had semi fullish bowls and opened up the plastic bin where I keep their food. Basil was all around my feet meowing like crazy. Even though there was food down : P I grabbed a scoop of food and took it outside. Well, seeing me walk OUT with food made them (Basil, Hazel and Henri my kitties) crowd the window... they just didn't understand what I was doing with THEIR food. I was feeding other kitties. The inkittinessness of it all... When I came back in, they were all meowing at me. Obviously trying to get some handle on what had just happened. LOL
Good day and pet a kitty today!
Monday, November 27, 2006
Listening for the phone....
Another fun fourth thursday in November. There was much to be thankful for and much to wish for. As was our tradition, we sat around after dinner writing up our Christmas wish lists. I remember to have Peace on Earth and got at least to the second page. I must be slowing down as normally the list is longer than 30 items. But before you think me a greedy person, remember this is a wish list. There is no limit of what to wish for. But that is for another day.
Today I found myself avoiding the phone. I have 7 or 8 saved messages now. There are two reasons I am avoiding it. One is my moving people have descended. They all want to give me quotes. I don't like people who don't let me do things at my own time. Hence my letting them go to the message box. As much as I want this move to be over and to be settled with B in the new place, I also don't want to move. I can hardly believe how much life has changed in the past months and I am still catching my breath a bit. I imagine it is a bit like cliff diving. Thrilling, exciting and as scary as anything. But that is way anything in life should be.
My other reason for avoiding the phone is that person called today. I had taken the number out of my phone and almost picked it up. That person didn't leave a message. I imagine it was about library materials still checked out as the notices would have gone out last week. But still. I prefer not to think of that person. I wish I could forgive that person. I wish I could pray for goodness for that person. Those were two items left off my wish list. The only thing I can do is pray for strength for me. The strength to forgive...
B says I am the nicest person he has ever met. I don't think so. I wish today I could have spent under the covers and not come out. I feel a bit peopled out right now. I am looking forward to heading home in just a hour and fifteen minutes to the quiet of my apartment. I love you all but go away :)
Good night and to err is human; to forgive divine.
Today I found myself avoiding the phone. I have 7 or 8 saved messages now. There are two reasons I am avoiding it. One is my moving people have descended. They all want to give me quotes. I don't like people who don't let me do things at my own time. Hence my letting them go to the message box. As much as I want this move to be over and to be settled with B in the new place, I also don't want to move. I can hardly believe how much life has changed in the past months and I am still catching my breath a bit. I imagine it is a bit like cliff diving. Thrilling, exciting and as scary as anything. But that is way anything in life should be.
My other reason for avoiding the phone is that person called today. I had taken the number out of my phone and almost picked it up. That person didn't leave a message. I imagine it was about library materials still checked out as the notices would have gone out last week. But still. I prefer not to think of that person. I wish I could forgive that person. I wish I could pray for goodness for that person. Those were two items left off my wish list. The only thing I can do is pray for strength for me. The strength to forgive...
B says I am the nicest person he has ever met. I don't think so. I wish today I could have spent under the covers and not come out. I feel a bit peopled out right now. I am looking forward to heading home in just a hour and fifteen minutes to the quiet of my apartment. I love you all but go away :)
Good night and to err is human; to forgive divine.
Wednesday, November 22, 2006
My Life in Boxes in Major E
Well it appears to be day 15.75 billion of packing. Yes, I know. It is like a month before I move but I want it to be done before then. I want to make sure that everything is packed and it is not a thing done on the day of the move while the movers are already packing up the van. I have decided that I am old enough and make enough that I can spare my family the chore of moving me once again.
And those thoughts (old enough and make enough) are beyond scary. There is a shirt in one catalog that I get that says "Pretending to be a serious and responsible adult". Though one only needs to see my Hello Kitty work bag and they might figure out my gig.
We had our No Food Thanksgiving Party. I know, I know... I had to explain it to my staff at first too. I told them that if they all brought in at least one canned good then I would provide all the food for the party. Well, they are just great! We filled three file sized boxes for the Community Hospice and Second Harvest Food Bank.
Sorry kiddos but it is very late. I still have to get up tomorrow and work out with J even though we both have the day off. Plus it will be day 16.75 billion of packing tomorrow.
Good night and Hello Kitty: )
And those thoughts (old enough and make enough) are beyond scary. There is a shirt in one catalog that I get that says "Pretending to be a serious and responsible adult". Though one only needs to see my Hello Kitty work bag and they might figure out my gig.
We had our No Food Thanksgiving Party. I know, I know... I had to explain it to my staff at first too. I told them that if they all brought in at least one canned good then I would provide all the food for the party. Well, they are just great! We filled three file sized boxes for the Community Hospice and Second Harvest Food Bank.
Sorry kiddos but it is very late. I still have to get up tomorrow and work out with J even though we both have the day off. Plus it will be day 16.75 billion of packing tomorrow.
Good night and Hello Kitty: )
Thursday, November 16, 2006
10 Questions
So a new look and a new blog posting... how sympatico I am. At one time, I was a good questioner. And I thought who better to try out some new ones on then my bloggers...
No worries... I always ask nothing I won't answer...
1. Name?
(See, an easy one first: Eve Mercy Cowart... I've always like my first name. It is however very hard to find personalized things though. Darn all the Evelyns in the world... they take that spot on most every personalized ____ rack)
2. What was the last song stuck in your head?
(If I had a Million Dollars by Bare Naked Ladies is tied for this with It smells like Thanksgiving... my children's person was getting a storytime ready. It was sung along as the same tune as Frere Jacque)
3. Favorite Bible Story?
(And no, it is so not the genesis garden of eden story... Because of my name, I was always asked where's Adam. I often told people that it didn't work out or that he ended up being a real snake : ) I have really liked the Esther story. She was an ordinary person who ended up saving an entire people.
4. Best gift you have ever given and to whom?
(A fused glass pendant to P... it really fit her personality and she wore it all the time. I love for the heck of it gifts. That one wasn't but I do like those gifts best of all. Though my secret gifts I like best of all... those would be to people who don't ever know who gave it...
5. A perfect night?
(It would be a chilly and rainy night where I am in my apartment with the lights low and a fire in the fireplace, my cats snuggled up with me in a fuzzy blanket, something lovely and soft playing on the radio, B sitting on the other end of the sofa, reading and talking and laughing.
6. Single Secret Behavior?
(Okay this one I got busted on the other day but I look at it as I must really feel completely comfortable around you dear... I talk in French to my one cat Henri. He isn't French. He just has a French name but somehow I will just break into French occassionally around him.
7. Most horrible nightmare?
(It has been a while but when I was on a mission trip, I dreamed that I was walking the streets in Victorian times and I was viciously attacked and the people all around me knew me but did nothing to stop it. It disturbed me so badly that I woke up screaming and crying. It had such a residual affect that I spent the next day just hanging out with one of the chaperons and not my friends.)
8. Newest skill?
(I have recently learned how to crochet. It was mainly due to a program that we have been hosting here at the library called Warm Up America. I have finished one square and am working on my next.)
9. A book that changed you?
(Feed by M.T. Anderson... it is an amazing book. It is a story set in the future and it talks about the lives of these teens who now have implants in their heads. They do everything virtually... go to school, talk, even get high. There are two main characters and the girl gets a virus that basically is killing her and killing the implant. She then wants to experience real life firsthand but the boy is having trouble with that. His whole life is in the virtual. It was one of the books that if I ever go back to school for a doctorate or another master that I will write on. I have a couple of topics in my head saved for that very purpose.)
10. Personal mantra?
(This was another easy one for me. I am afraid. I am afraid of heights. I am afraid of driving the interstate. I am afraid of meeting new people and making an idiot of myself. But my personal mantra is " Never let fear stop you from doing what you truly want." It has helped in so many different situations. I figure it is akin to "seize the day"ish kind of attitude. I don't want to die knowing I never truly lived.
Okay kiddies... time for me to head back to work. I had to do this in two sessions in order to get it all fini.
Good day and what could we accomplish if we could not fail...
No worries... I always ask nothing I won't answer...
1. Name?
(See, an easy one first: Eve Mercy Cowart... I've always like my first name. It is however very hard to find personalized things though. Darn all the Evelyns in the world... they take that spot on most every personalized ____ rack)
2. What was the last song stuck in your head?
(If I had a Million Dollars by Bare Naked Ladies is tied for this with It smells like Thanksgiving... my children's person was getting a storytime ready. It was sung along as the same tune as Frere Jacque)
3. Favorite Bible Story?
(And no, it is so not the genesis garden of eden story... Because of my name, I was always asked where's Adam. I often told people that it didn't work out or that he ended up being a real snake : ) I have really liked the Esther story. She was an ordinary person who ended up saving an entire people.
4. Best gift you have ever given and to whom?
(A fused glass pendant to P... it really fit her personality and she wore it all the time. I love for the heck of it gifts. That one wasn't but I do like those gifts best of all. Though my secret gifts I like best of all... those would be to people who don't ever know who gave it...
5. A perfect night?
(It would be a chilly and rainy night where I am in my apartment with the lights low and a fire in the fireplace, my cats snuggled up with me in a fuzzy blanket, something lovely and soft playing on the radio, B sitting on the other end of the sofa, reading and talking and laughing.
6. Single Secret Behavior?
(Okay this one I got busted on the other day but I look at it as I must really feel completely comfortable around you dear... I talk in French to my one cat Henri. He isn't French. He just has a French name but somehow I will just break into French occassionally around him.
7. Most horrible nightmare?
(It has been a while but when I was on a mission trip, I dreamed that I was walking the streets in Victorian times and I was viciously attacked and the people all around me knew me but did nothing to stop it. It disturbed me so badly that I woke up screaming and crying. It had such a residual affect that I spent the next day just hanging out with one of the chaperons and not my friends.)
8. Newest skill?
(I have recently learned how to crochet. It was mainly due to a program that we have been hosting here at the library called Warm Up America. I have finished one square and am working on my next.)
9. A book that changed you?
(Feed by M.T. Anderson... it is an amazing book. It is a story set in the future and it talks about the lives of these teens who now have implants in their heads. They do everything virtually... go to school, talk, even get high. There are two main characters and the girl gets a virus that basically is killing her and killing the implant. She then wants to experience real life firsthand but the boy is having trouble with that. His whole life is in the virtual. It was one of the books that if I ever go back to school for a doctorate or another master that I will write on. I have a couple of topics in my head saved for that very purpose.)
10. Personal mantra?
(This was another easy one for me. I am afraid. I am afraid of heights. I am afraid of driving the interstate. I am afraid of meeting new people and making an idiot of myself. But my personal mantra is " Never let fear stop you from doing what you truly want." It has helped in so many different situations. I figure it is akin to "seize the day"ish kind of attitude. I don't want to die knowing I never truly lived.
Okay kiddies... time for me to head back to work. I had to do this in two sessions in order to get it all fini.
Good day and what could we accomplish if we could not fail...
Saturday, November 11, 2006
A girl with really deep thoughts...
Running back through my CD collection as I clean and pack. I have had a couple of weirdnesses today.
Yesterday when B and I were in Basket Case, they had a display of cool fact birthday key chains. Mine said people born on December 22 are like organizing, need to feel that their love is secure and that Puccini the Italian composer was born on this date too. Well, okay, as I had no idea who Puccini was. But this morning as I was trying to complete the daunting task of deciding which books to pack, I just happened to flip open one of them. It was a copy of the 1917 Metropolitian Opera production of La Boheme. I have always liked the story but never heard the opera. I believe also that it is the basis for my favorite musical Rent. The music for this opera was by none other than Puccini....I had never realized it before. Okay so strangeness....
My other piece of weirdness was something that came to me just now. I was contemplating this move. I then remember what I had told everyone way back when I moved in here. I like moving but I hate moving so I told everyone this was my last apartment. Next time it was going to be moving into a house. Which just happens to be true... just not exactly how I originally planned it. Too odd... which is my life in a nutshell.
I had a great time with T and her mom in the land of good and evil. We headed out early because the Lady and Sons was where we wanted to eat and we knew it would fill up quick. It is the best Southern cooking I have even eaten. The last time I ate so well was the last time I was there. Just unbelievable. We had plans to stop off in a doll museum that they wanted to go to as well. But it appears that the museum is not longer there. The ride back was just as good as the ride to the land of good and evil...T and her mom are a kick. I spent a little time at their house as well. I am almost certain that that was the first visit I have ever had to another library person's house. T made me nap before leaving. It had been a fairly early leaving time so I didn't fight her too much on that idea.
So Good day and have you had any weirdness lately?
Yesterday when B and I were in Basket Case, they had a display of cool fact birthday key chains. Mine said people born on December 22 are like organizing, need to feel that their love is secure and that Puccini the Italian composer was born on this date too. Well, okay, as I had no idea who Puccini was. But this morning as I was trying to complete the daunting task of deciding which books to pack, I just happened to flip open one of them. It was a copy of the 1917 Metropolitian Opera production of La Boheme. I have always liked the story but never heard the opera. I believe also that it is the basis for my favorite musical Rent. The music for this opera was by none other than Puccini....I had never realized it before. Okay so strangeness....
My other piece of weirdness was something that came to me just now. I was contemplating this move. I then remember what I had told everyone way back when I moved in here. I like moving but I hate moving so I told everyone this was my last apartment. Next time it was going to be moving into a house. Which just happens to be true... just not exactly how I originally planned it. Too odd... which is my life in a nutshell.
I had a great time with T and her mom in the land of good and evil. We headed out early because the Lady and Sons was where we wanted to eat and we knew it would fill up quick. It is the best Southern cooking I have even eaten. The last time I ate so well was the last time I was there. Just unbelievable. We had plans to stop off in a doll museum that they wanted to go to as well. But it appears that the museum is not longer there. The ride back was just as good as the ride to the land of good and evil...T and her mom are a kick. I spent a little time at their house as well. I am almost certain that that was the first visit I have ever had to another library person's house. T made me nap before leaving. It had been a fairly early leaving time so I didn't fight her too much on that idea.
So Good day and have you had any weirdness lately?
Wednesday, November 08, 2006
On the first day of Patricias...
I find myself in a whole other county and city tonight. I have wandered south and west to P's home. I had already decided to take Wednesday off of work. And thus seeing P at the wedding, I really didn't get quality sister to sister time. I figured now would be primo time spent well. She is such a cooly girl. I just love her to beyond and back.
On the second day of Patricia's, I will be heading to the land of good and evil for a day of good eating and fun. We are heading to the Lady and Sons for some of the best Southern food around. I have only eaten there once and it has stuck in my head for all that time.
B and I are getting the house. We'll be moving in in mid-December. It is just a wonderful house and just perfect for us. Plus I get to live with B. : ) He is beyond wonderful. I knew I was due for a good this next time around. I have a pattern. Bad, good, bad, good, bad, good... little did I know that he would end up being the best of all... for me. I wrote to his mom tonight. Just an introductory letter. I have been able to introduce to most of my immediate family but he can't due to distance. I hope she likes the letter. I mainly tried to tell her a little about me and find out a little about her. I plan on being with B for a while and I would like his family to like me.
I am doing a coolish thing with my new Hello Kitty locket. And yes, today I was decked in Hello Kitty from head to toe today : P I have always saved my fortune whenever I have Chinese food. So I have started pulling one at random, reading it, folding it up and tucking it in my locket. Just a little reminder... most of my fortunes have ended up fairly cool. I will never forget when J made those fortune cookies with youth group up in Maryland. LOL She put in things that she wanted to happen to her. If I remember correctly, most had to do with a little known band called Duran Duran : ) Today's fortune was perceived failure is oftentimes success trying to be born in a bigger way.
Good morning and much love from a traveling girl....
On the second day of Patricia's, I will be heading to the land of good and evil for a day of good eating and fun. We are heading to the Lady and Sons for some of the best Southern food around. I have only eaten there once and it has stuck in my head for all that time.
B and I are getting the house. We'll be moving in in mid-December. It is just a wonderful house and just perfect for us. Plus I get to live with B. : ) He is beyond wonderful. I knew I was due for a good this next time around. I have a pattern. Bad, good, bad, good, bad, good... little did I know that he would end up being the best of all... for me. I wrote to his mom tonight. Just an introductory letter. I have been able to introduce to most of my immediate family but he can't due to distance. I hope she likes the letter. I mainly tried to tell her a little about me and find out a little about her. I plan on being with B for a while and I would like his family to like me.
I am doing a coolish thing with my new Hello Kitty locket. And yes, today I was decked in Hello Kitty from head to toe today : P I have always saved my fortune whenever I have Chinese food. So I have started pulling one at random, reading it, folding it up and tucking it in my locket. Just a little reminder... most of my fortunes have ended up fairly cool. I will never forget when J made those fortune cookies with youth group up in Maryland. LOL She put in things that she wanted to happen to her. If I remember correctly, most had to do with a little known band called Duran Duran : ) Today's fortune was perceived failure is oftentimes success trying to be born in a bigger way.
Good morning and much love from a traveling girl....
Thursday, November 02, 2006
Sad Bunnies
Why do sad bunnies never jump? Because they're not hoppy.. (insert laughtrack). Just another wonderful day here in library land. The joke was courtesy of the Daily Riddle that we have been doing here at the library.
I remember when we did a joke contest at one of my other branches. I commited the cardinal sin of joke telling however. I started laughing at my own joke before I finished it (sorry Uncle Mark... it was the one with the duck and the grapes).
I love to laugh. I was always the one who got the giggles at the dinner table. I just don't know why... something someone said or did struck my with such silliness that I could not help it. Life should never be taken seriously. Sometimes the most serious of times is the time for laughing.
I really must get on the ball with the choir searching. I miss singing. I do it everyday it seems but I miss singing with a group and singing hymns.
I also need to get writing as well. I feel like life is on standby with all of the packing and moving I am getting into in the next month. I need to get into a schedule too. I am a work in progress as always : ) It gets a bit overwhelming with all that I want to do. I just have to keep thinking that in order to eat the elephant it requires one bite at a time.... (really must think of better tasting analogy: )
Good day and bon appetit!
I remember when we did a joke contest at one of my other branches. I commited the cardinal sin of joke telling however. I started laughing at my own joke before I finished it (sorry Uncle Mark... it was the one with the duck and the grapes).
I love to laugh. I was always the one who got the giggles at the dinner table. I just don't know why... something someone said or did struck my with such silliness that I could not help it. Life should never be taken seriously. Sometimes the most serious of times is the time for laughing.
I really must get on the ball with the choir searching. I miss singing. I do it everyday it seems but I miss singing with a group and singing hymns.
I also need to get writing as well. I feel like life is on standby with all of the packing and moving I am getting into in the next month. I need to get into a schedule too. I am a work in progress as always : ) It gets a bit overwhelming with all that I want to do. I just have to keep thinking that in order to eat the elephant it requires one bite at a time.... (really must think of better tasting analogy: )
Good day and bon appetit!
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
Old and New Halloween
I have always loved dressing up. That was part of why I loved being a children's librarian. It was free rein on the whole dressing up.
I dressed up today. Today, as I sit here in my manager's office, I am a princess. Now most days I am a pretty royal... but there is usually more to the phrase.
I have always heard that they used to dress up to fool the spirits that roamed the earth on All Hlallow's Eve. I think in today's outfit I wouldn't fool any of them. It is a combo of both old and new. I am wearing the new long black braided wig of H, the new circelet of flowers that B. got me, his long tunic, sword belt, pouch and rings. I am also wearing my old sandals, my old velvet dress that the kindergardeners loved and my old fleur-de-le and celtic knot ring.
Old and new is part of so much in our culture. We sang about it in brownies, we work it into our wedding traditions. Old and new...
Okay enough musing for today.. I think we may have found a possible house for renting. Huzzah! We are still going on looking on Saturday though. It will have to be after the wedding. No, peoples, not mine. D's is marrying H on Saturday. And before you start fussing that I should have told you earlier, it wasn't me. I didn't find out until yesterday. So congrats Donald and Helen : ) !!!
Good night and something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue...
I dressed up today. Today, as I sit here in my manager's office, I am a princess. Now most days I am a pretty royal... but there is usually more to the phrase.
I have always heard that they used to dress up to fool the spirits that roamed the earth on All Hlallow's Eve. I think in today's outfit I wouldn't fool any of them. It is a combo of both old and new. I am wearing the new long black braided wig of H, the new circelet of flowers that B. got me, his long tunic, sword belt, pouch and rings. I am also wearing my old sandals, my old velvet dress that the kindergardeners loved and my old fleur-de-le and celtic knot ring.
Old and new is part of so much in our culture. We sang about it in brownies, we work it into our wedding traditions. Old and new...
Okay enough musing for today.. I think we may have found a possible house for renting. Huzzah! We are still going on looking on Saturday though. It will have to be after the wedding. No, peoples, not mine. D's is marrying H on Saturday. And before you start fussing that I should have told you earlier, it wasn't me. I didn't find out until yesterday. So congrats Donald and Helen : ) !!!
Good night and something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue...
Thursday, October 26, 2006
Sign that we live in a weird world
I was driving to work on day. I passed an election bulletin board. As I was stuck at a light I read all the way down to the part that starts This message was approved (yada, yada, yada). It was the last name that got me...by the Charles Bronson for Agriculture Comissioner Campaign.
Wait a sec... isn't that the guy with the really mad face, tiny mustache and all his movies have the word Venegence in them? I then had this mental film of him kicking major butt with only vegetables to fight off the bad guys. Shudder....
Good night and hasta la vista baby carrots (okay wrong guy but you get the idea : )
Wait a sec... isn't that the guy with the really mad face, tiny mustache and all his movies have the word Venegence in them? I then had this mental film of him kicking major butt with only vegetables to fight off the bad guys. Shudder....
Good night and hasta la vista baby carrots (okay wrong guy but you get the idea : )
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I am a voice yet waiting to be heard....
I have missed jacket weather. I have missed a blanket night. I pulled my winterish clothes out this morning in my search to find something to wear. They are winterish as most people up North would consider this a balmy day : ) However will I survive in a different climate?
But that is a consideration for another day. Today was the day I had hoped to clear off my desk of the abundance of clutter that has attached itself to it. No such luck. I think my piles are having piles. Something to work on tomorrow as well.
I did move one thing off of it though. I was (hopefully) able to track down a contact for a book Dad's is looking to webpublish. My family and friends are becoming a great source of reference questions.
I have always loved puzzles. I often imagine my reference questions being puzzles. Something to solve or track down. I have always loved to figure things out. We're having a Murder Mystery at the Library this weekend. I already got my masking tape dead body outline on the floor. I even got real live police line do not cross tape. I really hope everything goes well with it.
I may stop on my way home and grab a firelog. Heaven knows if the new place will have a fireplace... I love a fire on a cold night, wrapped in a blanket and sipping cocoa....aaaaaahhhhhhh... here's to more cold nights.
Good night and don't kiss an elephant today.
But that is a consideration for another day. Today was the day I had hoped to clear off my desk of the abundance of clutter that has attached itself to it. No such luck. I think my piles are having piles. Something to work on tomorrow as well.
I did move one thing off of it though. I was (hopefully) able to track down a contact for a book Dad's is looking to webpublish. My family and friends are becoming a great source of reference questions.
I have always loved puzzles. I often imagine my reference questions being puzzles. Something to solve or track down. I have always loved to figure things out. We're having a Murder Mystery at the Library this weekend. I already got my masking tape dead body outline on the floor. I even got real live police line do not cross tape. I really hope everything goes well with it.
I may stop on my way home and grab a firelog. Heaven knows if the new place will have a fireplace... I love a fire on a cold night, wrapped in a blanket and sipping cocoa....aaaaaahhhhhhh... here's to more cold nights.
Good night and don't kiss an elephant today.
Monday, October 23, 2006
Meanwhile...
Life seems to be settling down just a wee bit here. I just spent the weekend with B. We went to the Professor Plum's Murder Mystery Playhouse for dinner and then Dave & Buster's for lunch the next day. All in all, I had a great weekend. But then weekends with him are always good.
I got mad at him this weekend. But he is getting a crash course in me and I had to explain to him that it isn't always what he thinks is wrong is what is making me mad. It is all a matter of perception. He says something, I interpret it my way and get upset. Upset is not really the right word though. I don't cry and yell or anything like that. I just get quiet and kind of stop talking. But if he asks, I will explain. It is a good thing that we talk about it. It makes the relationship more real I think. More substance. I remember reading once that you are in love with someone because and you love someone although.
He is this amazing wonderful flawed person but that is good because so am I. It is hard to imagine how much my life has changed in the last couple of months. It is still becoming balanced. We won't be seeing each other until Saturday this week. The whole missing seeing him kind of sneaks up on me. I just don't expect it. But then the whole love thing surprises me too. It was not what I was thinking when I agreed to a first date. In truth, I was still fairly afraid of being in love. It was a big risk. But I think of how I feel when he holds me and it makes it worth it.
Good night and smile at the person sitting next to you at the stoplight.
I got mad at him this weekend. But he is getting a crash course in me and I had to explain to him that it isn't always what he thinks is wrong is what is making me mad. It is all a matter of perception. He says something, I interpret it my way and get upset. Upset is not really the right word though. I don't cry and yell or anything like that. I just get quiet and kind of stop talking. But if he asks, I will explain. It is a good thing that we talk about it. It makes the relationship more real I think. More substance. I remember reading once that you are in love with someone because and you love someone although.
He is this amazing wonderful flawed person but that is good because so am I. It is hard to imagine how much my life has changed in the last couple of months. It is still becoming balanced. We won't be seeing each other until Saturday this week. The whole missing seeing him kind of sneaks up on me. I just don't expect it. But then the whole love thing surprises me too. It was not what I was thinking when I agreed to a first date. In truth, I was still fairly afraid of being in love. It was a big risk. But I think of how I feel when he holds me and it makes it worth it.
Good night and smile at the person sitting next to you at the stoplight.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
Hunger vs Hungry
I hunger, you hunger, we all hunger. Easy enough to say but it is more complex than that. Every year our library supports a local event called Empty Bowls. And each year I search out statistics to bring home a point about feeding the hungry.
It always awes and horrifies all at the same time. This years' statistic was around the world, every 3.6 seconds someone dies of hunger or hunger related diseases. And it is not just in places that you see in National Geographic. It is here as well. A rich nation but still people go hungry here.
We used to do a day of fasting for World Hunger Day (October 16th) when I was in youth group many moons ago. Now at work, we'll be having a food drive.
Not much but every little bit helps. Which reminds me of one of the things P has talked about doing is getting a tattoo (okay I swear not off subject or out of mind : ). She has wanted to get the phrase "A drop in the ocean". To me, it is a phrase which signifies the strength of the one.
Picture it... The Ocean. Billions upon billions upon billions upon billions... you get the idea... of gallons of water. But it all started with drops, drops of rain, drops of snow melting, just drops. It is beyond amazing the power of just one. I have a quote on my door which reads, "To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.". Just something to think on...
and for $19.95 you can received the official Eve speech on CD or cassette. Call now and get a second copy for just 5 cents more. Operators are standing by. Please no CODS just gold and silver : P
Good day and 1,2,3...
It always awes and horrifies all at the same time. This years' statistic was around the world, every 3.6 seconds someone dies of hunger or hunger related diseases. And it is not just in places that you see in National Geographic. It is here as well. A rich nation but still people go hungry here.
We used to do a day of fasting for World Hunger Day (October 16th) when I was in youth group many moons ago. Now at work, we'll be having a food drive.
Not much but every little bit helps. Which reminds me of one of the things P has talked about doing is getting a tattoo (okay I swear not off subject or out of mind : ). She has wanted to get the phrase "A drop in the ocean". To me, it is a phrase which signifies the strength of the one.
Picture it... The Ocean. Billions upon billions upon billions upon billions... you get the idea... of gallons of water. But it all started with drops, drops of rain, drops of snow melting, just drops. It is beyond amazing the power of just one. I have a quote on my door which reads, "To the world you may be just one person, but to one person you may be the world.". Just something to think on...
and for $19.95 you can received the official Eve speech on CD or cassette. Call now and get a second copy for just 5 cents more. Operators are standing by. Please no CODS just gold and silver : P
Good day and 1,2,3...
Monday, October 16, 2006
To that person
I believe my sister.
I saw the bruises.
I have been around when
you manipulated her
to get what you wanted.
I know that no one in your
entire life loved you
as much as she did.
I believe her.
I feel sorry for you and
that you have to live
for the rest of your life
with what you did.
It was not her fault.
She is not perfect.
You are not perfect.
I believe my sister.
I know how controlling you can be.
No one deserves to be
emotionally, physically
or any other way abused.
It is not her fault.
You need to get some help.
I do not hate you.
I can not judge you.
But this is not right.
I believe my sister.
When will you take responsibility
for your choices?
I was drunk is no excuse.
See what you made me do
is no excuse.
I believe my sister.
One time is one time too many.
Why did you hurt when
you know what it is like be hurt?
I saw the bruises.
I have been around when
you manipulated her
to get what you wanted.
I know that no one in your
entire life loved you
as much as she did.
I believe her.
I feel sorry for you and
that you have to live
for the rest of your life
with what you did.
It was not her fault.
She is not perfect.
You are not perfect.
I believe my sister.
I know how controlling you can be.
No one deserves to be
emotionally, physically
or any other way abused.
It is not her fault.
You need to get some help.
I do not hate you.
I can not judge you.
But this is not right.
I believe my sister.
When will you take responsibility
for your choices?
I was drunk is no excuse.
See what you made me do
is no excuse.
I believe my sister.
One time is one time too many.
Why did you hurt when
you know what it is like be hurt?
Saturday, October 14, 2006
A Week and a Half later....
My apologies, bloggers. Life got in the way of blogging : P Needless to say, I have been dealing with a lot. Work, love, moving, abuse... that's just a small sample of what has been going on recently. So how am I? A bit overwhelmed but fine otherwise. I have a good support system. It has just been a lot of changes in a short amount of time. Complete one eighty in the last year.
Thus I am still catching me breath. And I know you thought the heavy breathing was an obscene caller : P
Today was a good slow day at work. I was able to clean out my email just a wee bit more. I was having to spent quite a bit of time here at the circulation desk. But it gave me time to answer some good reference questions (What is citizensship was one of them?) and get my stuff together for my internet basics class on Monday.
Tonight B and I am having a horror movie marathon. He has been one of the big changes this year but oh what a great change he is.... : ) I borrowed several DVDs from the library (It's good to be the king.. manager... whatever) and plan to watch to the wee hours of the morning. A little escapism is a good thing. It's just been so stressful recently. One of the things that I have started doing is going to the gym right down the street from work in the mornings. It is the best gym. Plenty of equipment, helpful people and very few people there in the mornings. I have been going 3 days a week with J, one of my staff. I really love it. It is such a great way to start the morning. We would go more but schedules just don't seem to fit more than 3 days.
Good night and have a pleasant tomorrow (hats off to the Weekend Update SNL crew : )
Thus I am still catching me breath. And I know you thought the heavy breathing was an obscene caller : P
Today was a good slow day at work. I was able to clean out my email just a wee bit more. I was having to spent quite a bit of time here at the circulation desk. But it gave me time to answer some good reference questions (What is citizensship was one of them?) and get my stuff together for my internet basics class on Monday.
Tonight B and I am having a horror movie marathon. He has been one of the big changes this year but oh what a great change he is.... : ) I borrowed several DVDs from the library (It's good to be the king.. manager... whatever) and plan to watch to the wee hours of the morning. A little escapism is a good thing. It's just been so stressful recently. One of the things that I have started doing is going to the gym right down the street from work in the mornings. It is the best gym. Plenty of equipment, helpful people and very few people there in the mornings. I have been going 3 days a week with J, one of my staff. I really love it. It is such a great way to start the morning. We would go more but schedules just don't seem to fit more than 3 days.
Good night and have a pleasant tomorrow (hats off to the Weekend Update SNL crew : )
Thursday, October 05, 2006
Can my car count to six?
I got in a little over two and a half hours of beach time in the other day. It was a very needed day. I was having a lot of trouble focusing on work issues and trying desperately not to worry about things the other day. So I slept in, went to breakfast with Dad and J and then ran off to the beach. It wasn't one I had ever visited. I mostly just laid out and read. I was within about a chapter of finishing Taken when the rain came in.
My head seems pretty well put back together. I have also been able to get some resolution with the volunteer situation. She wasn't having a good week either. Her pastor has pancreatic cancer and she have to deal with that news as well. We talked and I am so glad she is back to helping out around here. Please keep her pastor in your prayers and thoughts.
I miss having a church of my own. But I am pretty picky and know what I want in most things... guys, churches, etc. I do want to stick with the Episcopal church. That was one of the best things about being in London is that they all (for the most part) were Church of England churches : )
Short and sweet today.... Good day and remember to hear God laugh all you have to do is make plans : P
My head seems pretty well put back together. I have also been able to get some resolution with the volunteer situation. She wasn't having a good week either. Her pastor has pancreatic cancer and she have to deal with that news as well. We talked and I am so glad she is back to helping out around here. Please keep her pastor in your prayers and thoughts.
I miss having a church of my own. But I am pretty picky and know what I want in most things... guys, churches, etc. I do want to stick with the Episcopal church. That was one of the best things about being in London is that they all (for the most part) were Church of England churches : )
Short and sweet today.... Good day and remember to hear God laugh all you have to do is make plans : P
Monday, October 02, 2006
Star of the Silent Pictures
I would have made a wonderful actress of the silent pictures. Everything shows on my face. I can not play poker to save my life. Another plus in this role is that I can cry. It is a defense mechanism of mine that I have worked on controlling but not completely. It is a reactionary thing normally. I hate that I can do it so easily.
With everything going on, I was a bit worried about J for most of the day. I knew she was going to pick up her stuff which would be hard enough. But I was also worried about her safety. With all that I have heard from her, I wondered if she would be able to make it safely through the day. I've seen P mentally attack her and also the bruises from when she physically attacked her. But thankfully she got her things and got out of the house safely.
I have decided that I can not judge either of them. I just mainly hate that they are both in such pain. It falls under that whole those without sin casting the first stone in my book. I mainly want to be there for her as much as I can. No one deserves to be deliberately harmed by anyone else. I have been lucky that that hasn't happened in my relationships.
I will be taking tomorrow off. I have decided that a mental health day is in order. It has been a stressful weekend. In order to be there for my friends and family, I need to first be there for me. B. was really wonderful this weekend. Especially considering he was dealing with himself. I thought to myself this morning that because of him, I feel like a completed jigsaw puzzle. Weird analogy but very fitting.
Good night and of course I am special... I have the sticker saying so....
With everything going on, I was a bit worried about J for most of the day. I knew she was going to pick up her stuff which would be hard enough. But I was also worried about her safety. With all that I have heard from her, I wondered if she would be able to make it safely through the day. I've seen P mentally attack her and also the bruises from when she physically attacked her. But thankfully she got her things and got out of the house safely.
I have decided that I can not judge either of them. I just mainly hate that they are both in such pain. It falls under that whole those without sin casting the first stone in my book. I mainly want to be there for her as much as I can. No one deserves to be deliberately harmed by anyone else. I have been lucky that that hasn't happened in my relationships.
I will be taking tomorrow off. I have decided that a mental health day is in order. It has been a stressful weekend. In order to be there for my friends and family, I need to first be there for me. B. was really wonderful this weekend. Especially considering he was dealing with himself. I thought to myself this morning that because of him, I feel like a completed jigsaw puzzle. Weird analogy but very fitting.
Good night and of course I am special... I have the sticker saying so....
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Nothing...
I am talked out. Discuss amongst yourself. I'll give you a topic. The Holy Roman Empire was neither holy, roman nor an empire...
So much going on... not in my life but in those close to me. Some I can talk about openly, some I can't. Needless to say, any thoughts or prayers would be welcome. No one person in particular. Just pray for the ones I love. I'll even make you a deal. You pray for the ones I love, I'll pray for the ones you love. That might end up being one heck of a prayer chain.
My title reminds me of a story called No News. It is best told in tandem and I'll post it here as best I can in honor of the National Storytelling Festival....
This woman is away for six weeks from home and the minute she stops off the train, her good friend is there to meet her. Eager for all the home gossip, she demands to know what has been going on the six weeks she was away. Her friend thinks for a second and tells her that there's been no news. She can hardly believe. Surely something, anything must have happened in her absence. Well, her friend thinks again for a long second and says, Well, your dog did die. My goodness the woman exclaims... how on earth did my dog die. Her friend tells her he just ate some burnt horseflesh and died. Wait a second where did the dog get burnt horseflesh. It was when the barn burnt down. Some horses were inside. Hold on... my barn burnt down. How did my barn burn down? It was a spark from the house. My house, my house burnt down to... how did my house burn down. Oh, yeah, well it was from all the candles. Candles? I don't keep any candles. Someone must have brought them in then. To go around the coffin. What! A coffin! Who died. Your mother-in-law. Oh, gee that's too bad. How did she die? Well, some say that it was the shock from when your husband ran away with the preacher's wife but other than that... there's been no news...
Oh so funny! Good day and pray hard.
So much going on... not in my life but in those close to me. Some I can talk about openly, some I can't. Needless to say, any thoughts or prayers would be welcome. No one person in particular. Just pray for the ones I love. I'll even make you a deal. You pray for the ones I love, I'll pray for the ones you love. That might end up being one heck of a prayer chain.
My title reminds me of a story called No News. It is best told in tandem and I'll post it here as best I can in honor of the National Storytelling Festival....
This woman is away for six weeks from home and the minute she stops off the train, her good friend is there to meet her. Eager for all the home gossip, she demands to know what has been going on the six weeks she was away. Her friend thinks for a second and tells her that there's been no news. She can hardly believe. Surely something, anything must have happened in her absence. Well, her friend thinks again for a long second and says, Well, your dog did die. My goodness the woman exclaims... how on earth did my dog die. Her friend tells her he just ate some burnt horseflesh and died. Wait a second where did the dog get burnt horseflesh. It was when the barn burnt down. Some horses were inside. Hold on... my barn burnt down. How did my barn burn down? It was a spark from the house. My house, my house burnt down to... how did my house burn down. Oh, yeah, well it was from all the candles. Candles? I don't keep any candles. Someone must have brought them in then. To go around the coffin. What! A coffin! Who died. Your mother-in-law. Oh, gee that's too bad. How did she die? Well, some say that it was the shock from when your husband ran away with the preacher's wife but other than that... there's been no news...
Oh so funny! Good day and pray hard.
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
Learning about Good Intentions
I have only been doing the manager thing for a little over a year and I still find myself learning new things daily. Today's lesson was all about good intentions. A day or so ago, I had took it upon myself to speak with one of our volunteers. My understanding was that she was looking for someone else to take on the crocheting group that she has been heading. She has been doing a great job of it but it has been over a year since she took it on and I could understand wanting a break. I let her know that the staff would be sitting in so that she could take a break if she wanted to.
I learned today that I was completely and utterly wrong. I had hurt the feelings of this wonderful person who I was really trying to help. I thought that if I offered a break, maybe she wouldn't want to stop. Well, I did a horrible job of it and now because she sees it as me taking away her group she does want to stop.
I feel just wretched about it. That was so not my intention. I was thinking that I was doing something good only to find out it was just plain bad what I did.
Well, I've sent her an apology letter. I considered a phone call but was afraid I might end up making it worse. I am hoping and praying that she understands.
Good day and I know that you know that I know, you know? Good communication is dog reading comics : )
I learned today that I was completely and utterly wrong. I had hurt the feelings of this wonderful person who I was really trying to help. I thought that if I offered a break, maybe she wouldn't want to stop. Well, I did a horrible job of it and now because she sees it as me taking away her group she does want to stop.
I feel just wretched about it. That was so not my intention. I was thinking that I was doing something good only to find out it was just plain bad what I did.
Well, I've sent her an apology letter. I considered a phone call but was afraid I might end up making it worse. I am hoping and praying that she understands.
Good day and I know that you know that I know, you know? Good communication is dog reading comics : )
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