Death, peace and Hello Kitty

When I take time off from writing my blog, there seems to be an extraordinary amount of things I ponder. The title is just a listing of a few.

Okay so peace was Friday night's topic before sleep. It was one of those just starting to drift off Pull -Me -Backers. I was debating on whether peace was an actual obtainable goal. Do we as humans have it in us to be at peace with one another? In the song, peace is supposed to begin with me. Am I peaceful? I think so. If you were to ask me right now, "Do you hate or wish to do harm to anyone?" My answer would be No. But is that peace? Does peace mean no fighting or is it something more? And I wonder why I have trouble sleeping sometimes... And sleep overruled as I never did finish the discussion with myself.

Death came up yesterday at Mom & Dad 's. I had gone over to do laundry. Being as it had been at least weeks since I did it last, I ended up standing for dinner (Mom, Grandmother did get the flowers). We had been talking about HMOs and I, as usual, was interjecting my own spin on Luke's message. Somehow from that we got on death & who gets to make the decisions. Mom emphatically told me that Dad would be calling the shots and vice versa.

It was one of those weird thoughtful times where you want to listen and cry all at the same time. For me, it was what I expected especially as Dad knows her mind most and she knows his. I am even not too concerned with if we bury or what happens to the body. Dad said something about dumpster and Wendy's for himself. I know it won't matter as it is just the cocoon left behind. The spirit will be with Jesus and the memories will be with me. Now before you start thinking I will going the Mendendez route... don't worry. I love my parents and I want to be around for quite some time but I also understand the natural progression of life. So we are born, so we die. We have such an odd handle on death in this country. I remember when Mom and Dad asked us to make a list of things we might want of theirs after they die, I started on it right away. My siblings thought I was being morbid. I didn't see it as that. It was a request, I like making lists and it wasn't like I handed in the list and asked them to die right now.

So from Goodbye Life to Hello Kitty... my mind works in mysterious ways. That was one of last night's thinks before bed. One of the stickers on my car is of Hello Kitty and Mimi. Somehow in thinking of that, I got on this whole balance of life kick. Which actually tied into my other topics quite nicely as they are also other sides of the balance... life death, war peace... Too much on either side changes things and skews your vision. I guess it ties into everything in moderation. I am bad at being balanced at some things. I tend to get too much of things until I don't want it any more. Too much junk food, too much sleeping, too much being alone. I need to work on that.

I did do a little more work on the international job thing. I finished my resume submission for one part of the DOD. There is a position in Germany. Though I do need to do a bit more research. I think I messed up one part. So onto research...

Good day and bring on the rain but keep the hurricane away....