For a well read, well written person, I sometimes suck at communication. I know what I am trying to say but saying it sometimes comes out all wrong. I think that this is why I like email, facebook and such. When I write it down, I have a delete key. When I say it, no such luck...
I struggle with what I think a person is going to say in response to what I say. I am so sure that I am going to hear a negative that I won't say something at all. I won't say I really want to do something or I think this way or that. I am 100% certain that the replier will tell what a totally stupid thing to say or want to do. Or I feel like an oyster. Closed up tighter than tight and you are supposed to realize that something is wrong and pry it out of me.
Sometimes it sounds so clear to me but not to the person I am talking to. I struggle with that at work every now and then. I assume I know what I am saying so everyone else must to.
That is what is so lovely about life though. I may struggle but there is always tomorrow. I know it sounds very Gone with the Wind but it makes it no less true. Tomorrow is a day of endless possibilities.
(And chicken and dumplings dinner with J, J and T : P ) I know that each day is a day for the better. I am very much a follower of This is the day that the Lord has made...we will rejoice and be glad in it.
Good day and better tomorrow.
Monday, December 28, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Devotional Repost
I wrote this last year. I was really happy with how it turned out. Thus I thought I might repost it. It was supposed to be a family devotional last year...
So here's what I had. I was going to have each person read a part. And then put the paper flipped over in the middle of the table. On the back, it would read Ch, ri, s, t, is, h, e, r, e
Mary: I was there, thoughtful and faithful. I went through things none had ever been through then or since. But I believed.
Joseph: I was there, supporting my wife. I believed her and God. We traveled far to come to the land of my birth. I would be there for his birth but his death would give all new life.
Shepherd: I was there, in awe and joyous. Everything that the angel told us came true. How could we stop from praising God for all the wondrous things we saw? And still see to this day.
Angel: I was there, praising and a messenger. Spreading the good news that this day would be born a savior. Even into this mortal flesh with all its pain and sorrow, how could one not but sing to his glory?
Star: I was there, shining a way to the Lord. Much like his Word still shines a way to him too.
Wise Men: I seek what all men seek. Salvation. Love. For all my gifts, his was greater still.
Ass: I was there. What was my burden of his mother to the burden for which he would carry even unto his death?
Innkeeper: I was there. How hectic a time was that? People stuck in every which how and place, only to find more on my doorstep looking for room. Imagine your house full to the gills. A man has to turn someone away. Yet how many more turn from him now?
Christ: I am here.
Christmas. Christ mass.
All those there for this one defining event. All those there to play a part. All crowded and around this singular person. Christ. Everything revolves around him. As it should now.
Then as now, there are so many things pulling away from Christ. Mothers, husbands, things to be gotten and given, messages to receive and get, seekers, burdens and hectic times.
But in the end, all that falls away and he is left. He is the pure grain when all the chaff is worn away. The Messiah. The Savior. That which all men seek and all may find. Amen.
Then as now, good night and find him...
So here's what I had. I was going to have each person read a part. And then put the paper flipped over in the middle of the table. On the back, it would read Ch, ri, s, t, is, h, e, r, e
Mary: I was there, thoughtful and faithful. I went through things none had ever been through then or since. But I believed.
Joseph: I was there, supporting my wife. I believed her and God. We traveled far to come to the land of my birth. I would be there for his birth but his death would give all new life.
Shepherd: I was there, in awe and joyous. Everything that the angel told us came true. How could we stop from praising God for all the wondrous things we saw? And still see to this day.
Angel: I was there, praising and a messenger. Spreading the good news that this day would be born a savior. Even into this mortal flesh with all its pain and sorrow, how could one not but sing to his glory?
Star: I was there, shining a way to the Lord. Much like his Word still shines a way to him too.
Wise Men: I seek what all men seek. Salvation. Love. For all my gifts, his was greater still.
Ass: I was there. What was my burden of his mother to the burden for which he would carry even unto his death?
Innkeeper: I was there. How hectic a time was that? People stuck in every which how and place, only to find more on my doorstep looking for room. Imagine your house full to the gills. A man has to turn someone away. Yet how many more turn from him now?
Christ: I am here.
Christmas. Christ mass.
All those there for this one defining event. All those there to play a part. All crowded and around this singular person. Christ. Everything revolves around him. As it should now.
Then as now, there are so many things pulling away from Christ. Mothers, husbands, things to be gotten and given, messages to receive and get, seekers, burdens and hectic times.
But in the end, all that falls away and he is left. He is the pure grain when all the chaff is worn away. The Messiah. The Savior. That which all men seek and all may find. Amen.
Then as now, good night and find him...
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Happy to be Born: P
A gift from Mom who remembers my love for Winnie the Pooh
An Autumn Windchime for my balcony 
Lunch and talking with Dad : D 
A scarecrow couple and their candle houses (okay so maybe it is their phobia house seeing as it contains fire : P )
My Jar of Moonlight from BelovedAll in all, it was a lovely day to be born. I got birthday wishes on my facebook page, lunch out with Dad where I got to share my cool news about B and I working on getting pregnant : D Not there yet but it is exciting to know we are trying. I got sung to by T and J and Beloved took me out to Orsay where we had the best meal ever. The cats even snagged his credit card and got me Hello Kitty gifts galore.
Lovely, lovely.
Good day and Happy Birthday (yesterday) to me !
Thursday, December 17, 2009
The Day After
It is the day after the party. Things are quiet compared to yesterday. There were so many people here. Crowds everywhere. Old staff, current staff, old customers, adminstration, Friends of the Library people, kids, the daughter of the person who headed the community campaign to build this library. I mean crowds. We had a good time listening to stories, making Mr. Potato Heads and enjoying the branch. Everyone put a lot of hard work into the day and it was great.
But my, were we wiped by the end of the day. There was one very sad part to the day. My boss found out her last day which will be in mid January. They are moving her to another branch. I don't think that they will be replacing her. I am guessing I will be acting boss until ? Staffing here is like the tide. They flow in and they flow right back out again.
Does that make me the rock that it all flows around?
Good day and yay and bummer.
But my, were we wiped by the end of the day. There was one very sad part to the day. My boss found out her last day which will be in mid January. They are moving her to another branch. I don't think that they will be replacing her. I am guessing I will be acting boss until ? Staffing here is like the tide. They flow in and they flow right back out again.
Does that make me the rock that it all flows around?
Good day and yay and bummer.
Monday, December 14, 2009
A new tradition
I come from a family with an abundance of Christmas traditions. He comes from one with none. So we added another to our family traditions. We made homemade gingerbread cookies. They were yummy, it was mess and it was a lot of fun to do with B. I made the pirate one : P He wanted cat cookie cutters but I have yet to find any. LOL You would think this might be the activity in which there is lights on the tree and some carols playing in the background. But not us... there were lights on the tree but it was a horror movie playing in the background.
That just us. Traditional with a quirk.
Good night and Chestnuts roasting on an open fire while manical chainsaw yielding person runs around : )
Friday, December 04, 2009
50 years
I am not 50. Thus far I have only made it to 33 and 4 days. In 18 more days, it will be 34 years on the earth. But my branch is turning 50 this year a couple of days before me.
We decided to throw a 1950s party. We are all dressing up in 1950s style clothes, playing with hula hoops, Frisbees, Barbie and Mr. Potato Head (with real potatos) and having staff who have worked here in the last 50 years come out to speak. We will be listening to Elvis and trying out our own American Bandstand style dancing.
Speaking of staff, we have a photo taken just the day before the opening here. It can be found at
http://jpl.coj.net/dlc/florida/photo/L18-001.html
We also decided to have a little trivia with the 1950s slang such as cat, bread, threads and tight.. better known as a cool person, money, clothes and best friends : )
Good day and you are just so keen : P
We decided to throw a 1950s party. We are all dressing up in 1950s style clothes, playing with hula hoops, Frisbees, Barbie and Mr. Potato Head (with real potatos) and having staff who have worked here in the last 50 years come out to speak. We will be listening to Elvis and trying out our own American Bandstand style dancing.
Speaking of staff, we have a photo taken just the day before the opening here. It can be found at
http://jpl.coj.net/dlc/florida/photo/L18-001.html
We also decided to have a little trivia with the 1950s slang such as cat, bread, threads and tight.. better known as a cool person, money, clothes and best friends : )
Good day and you are just so keen : P
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Wish List
Eve's Wish List
Big Skillet
Oven Thermometer/Kitchen Thermometer
Dance by Mucha (Poster)
Hello Kitty Luggage Tags
Shower Radio
1000+ piece puzzles
Money to Charity
Marble Rolling Pin
18 inch silver or white gold necklace
Now that's What I call Music 32
Professor Layton and the Diabolical Box
An original artwork (one that you paint, draw,etc)
A surprise visit
A letter telling me why I am loved or a special memory of me
A picture of you
A jar of moonlight (whatever that means to you)
A coupon for dinner at your house for a later date
Homemade cookies (chocolate chips are my favorite but whatever is good )
Fables #7 and 9
Y: The Last Man #3-10
Silicon Cooking sheets
I was going to send this out to my family but couldn't get it attached. Whomever gets me as their person this year should probably check with B.
It is a family tradition to write this after dinner on Thanksgiving. B. and I rebelled with ham though : ) This is a lot shorter than I normally do and it was super hard this year. We already have so much. I am thankful for that and for my family. They are just so cool and unbelievable kind and caring. I feel like they are not just family. They are my friends too.
I am thankful for B too. I am so incredibly lucky to have him in my life. I love him beyond words. He is my best friend and my love. How cool is that : )
Good night and thank you!
Big Skillet
Oven Thermometer/Kitchen Thermometer
Dance by Mucha (Poster)
Hello Kitty Luggage Tags
Shower Radio
1000+ piece puzzles
Money to Charity
Marble Rolling Pin
18 inch silver or white gold necklace
Now that's What I call Music 32
Professor Layton and the Diabolical Box
An original artwork (one that you paint, draw,etc)
A surprise visit
A letter telling me why I am loved or a special memory of me
A picture of you
A jar of moonlight (whatever that means to you)
A coupon for dinner at your house for a later date
Homemade cookies (chocolate chips are my favorite but whatever is good )
Fables #7 and 9
Y: The Last Man #3-10
Silicon Cooking sheets
I was going to send this out to my family but couldn't get it attached. Whomever gets me as their person this year should probably check with B.
It is a family tradition to write this after dinner on Thanksgiving. B. and I rebelled with ham though : ) This is a lot shorter than I normally do and it was super hard this year. We already have so much. I am thankful for that and for my family. They are just so cool and unbelievable kind and caring. I feel like they are not just family. They are my friends too.
I am thankful for B too. I am so incredibly lucky to have him in my life. I love him beyond words. He is my best friend and my love. How cool is that : )
Good night and thank you!
Monday, November 23, 2009
Things I learn at work
They are very big on training at my job. But sometimes the things I learn don't exactly fall under training per se. I learn about how some have come long distances and sacrificed much to come to this country. One of my coworkers is from Kenya. Her parents moved her and her siblings here to give them more opportunity. They gave up a lot to be here. I really like hearing her talk. To me, her accent sounds so cool. She is willing to talk about everything under the sun.
Another one of my coworkers has three kids. They are all around my age. She goes through trials, joys and the in-between with them. But through it all she wants the best for them. It is a good lesson to show someone who has not had the courage to have kids yet. With her, everyone who comes through the doors is a possible family member or friend. She fusses at and for them.
I am in awe of my library kids sometimes. They are so curious and so want to help. They are so smart too. They crowd around my station sometimes. Just wanting someone to listen. It is interesting to see the world like they see it.
I had the chance to talk to my coworker about being a parent, buying a house and Christmas. She told me about how her father would write handwritten notes to her and her siblings as from Santa and he would put Santa bootprints around the fireplace. She is somewhat in the same boat as me. Both newlyweds, both renting, both no kids. It is good to talk to someone so alike me and so different. She has been saving up for a house and the where to go from here. She is really helpful and a good example in customer service.
Good day and hi, ho, hi, ho, it's off to work I go.
Another one of my coworkers has three kids. They are all around my age. She goes through trials, joys and the in-between with them. But through it all she wants the best for them. It is a good lesson to show someone who has not had the courage to have kids yet. With her, everyone who comes through the doors is a possible family member or friend. She fusses at and for them.
I am in awe of my library kids sometimes. They are so curious and so want to help. They are so smart too. They crowd around my station sometimes. Just wanting someone to listen. It is interesting to see the world like they see it.
I had the chance to talk to my coworker about being a parent, buying a house and Christmas. She told me about how her father would write handwritten notes to her and her siblings as from Santa and he would put Santa bootprints around the fireplace. She is somewhat in the same boat as me. Both newlyweds, both renting, both no kids. It is good to talk to someone so alike me and so different. She has been saving up for a house and the where to go from here. She is really helpful and a good example in customer service.
Good day and hi, ho, hi, ho, it's off to work I go.
Friday, November 20, 2009
Feeling Better
The last couple of days, I was feeling a bit off. Mainly just tired and a bit off. Today was better.
The worst part of it all was we had dance class on a day when I didn't feel good. I was determined to go though. But now, I can hardly remember the steps we learned. It is such a shame. We had begun on turns and spins. Not a day for a headache and being dizzy already.
But we head back again on Tuesday. We have talked it over and are thinking of continuing. We finally got to dance on the beat that day. It just felt so cool to dance with B.
Today I also got to make turkeys in storytime. They were oreo turkeys and they were super yummy! I made a couple for the staff too. I think we are going to use them in a craft program on Tuesday too.
I am taking Wednesday off to get supplies and get cooking. We aren't doing a big family thing but B and I will be having a Thanksgiving dinner together. There is so much to be thankful this year.
Good night and I sure hope I can remember the steps this time.
The worst part of it all was we had dance class on a day when I didn't feel good. I was determined to go though. But now, I can hardly remember the steps we learned. It is such a shame. We had begun on turns and spins. Not a day for a headache and being dizzy already.
But we head back again on Tuesday. We have talked it over and are thinking of continuing. We finally got to dance on the beat that day. It just felt so cool to dance with B.
Today I also got to make turkeys in storytime. They were oreo turkeys and they were super yummy! I made a couple for the staff too. I think we are going to use them in a craft program on Tuesday too.
I am taking Wednesday off to get supplies and get cooking. We aren't doing a big family thing but B and I will be having a Thanksgiving dinner together. There is so much to be thankful this year.
Good night and I sure hope I can remember the steps this time.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
The food of the soul
I live for music, rhythm and dance. I sing and dance while I drive. I hear songs in my head and will usually sing at the drop of a hat.
I got a real thrill tonight though. B and I went to our first ballroom dance lesson. It was such fun. He was really nervous though. I can usually tell. He barely let my hand go as the owner told us about the lessons and setup. But he did great. The teacher was really patient with us.
We started on the basic steps and then moved onto a box step and then a basic foxtrot. We didn't do it for any particular reason. It was just something fun and active to do together. It reminds me of our marriage. We are having fun, not knowing all the steps but learning them together. Sometimes toes get stepped on or someone goes the wrong way but it is all about the dance.
Afterwards we went out to dinner at the other Country Cabin. They have beef stroganoff on Wednesdays only. It could easily become my favorite day of the week. Dance AND beef stroganoff...
Good night and may I have this dance?
I got a real thrill tonight though. B and I went to our first ballroom dance lesson. It was such fun. He was really nervous though. I can usually tell. He barely let my hand go as the owner told us about the lessons and setup. But he did great. The teacher was really patient with us.
We started on the basic steps and then moved onto a box step and then a basic foxtrot. We didn't do it for any particular reason. It was just something fun and active to do together. It reminds me of our marriage. We are having fun, not knowing all the steps but learning them together. Sometimes toes get stepped on or someone goes the wrong way but it is all about the dance.
Afterwards we went out to dinner at the other Country Cabin. They have beef stroganoff on Wednesdays only. It could easily become my favorite day of the week. Dance AND beef stroganoff...
Good night and may I have this dance?
Sunday, November 01, 2009
October in A Nutshell
Earlier this month, B and I headed out to Kingsley Plantation on a very windy day. 
I love driving with him. And we spend a lot of time talking and laughing on the drive. 
Dad always likes to say that history is in every step you take. And I loved stepping here and imagining what it might have been like to live during that time.
Could have the mistress of this house stood on her lawn contemplating the water and sky just like me? Could she have loved the feel of the wind pushing her hair to and fro like I did?
In the middle/end of the month, B and I went to a Star Wars in Concert. We got to listen to a live symphony orchestra play the Star Wars score and watch a montage of the movies all together.
During intermission, I got a picture of Star Wars' bad guy and my good guy. I had tried to get the tickets as a surprise. But ended up telling him about it before the end of the night... it is so hard for me to hold onto surprises. 
This is the fall book display towards the end of the month of October. I really love the season and holiday so I put a lot into it.
Including adding some of my own decorations from home (i.e. the black cat among others).
I am always surprised at what things I find in the back room. These were a tie dye type of banner of fall leaves we wrapped around the circulation desk. Everyone kept checking to see if we had finally put candy in the pumpkins. : P
I am a Florida pioneer woman (or cracker) for Halloween. I was able to use my grandmother's basket (she makes beautiful ones). It made me laugh as people tried to guess who I was. I got everything from Holly Hobby to Mother Goose. 
Apparently because being a pioneer woman wasn't cool enough I decided to add shades to my ensemble. Well, not really. I had been to the eye doctor earlier and gotten the slip ons for my glasses due to my eyes being dialated. This look got me called Granny for the rest of the afternoon.
All in all, a very good month was October. I wonder what November will bring...
Good night and good night.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
What was waiting for me when I came home tonight...
I have been fighting a bad cold this last week. Last Friday I had no voice. And this weekend was no weekend. I spent it all in bed asleep. But tonight when I got home, I had the most lovely surprise waiting for me. 
The card is a get well card entitled "Meee-Ouch!"
The note pad has this written above it: 
Good night and lucky me!
The card is a get well card entitled "Meee-Ouch!"
The note pad has this written above it:When I Look at You...
I see a remarkable woman with a kind and caring heart who is beautiful in every sense of the word. You are everything wonderful and if I had just one wish it would be that you could see what I see when I look at you.
Thankfully I had tissues galore...
Good night and lucky me!
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
De-stressed
Mark took me away this last weekend. We headed down to St. Augustine Beach. We had a lovely room with a view of the beach and jacuzzi tub in the room.
Why? Well, after months of pins and needles, we are still open the same hours at the same branch. Somehow the people spoke up and wanted us open. It was humbling how many people came into the library to tell us how we were important. Some signed or created petitions, some contacted the local politicans, some wrote the paper. It was so cool.
It is amazing to me just what an importance libraries have everywhere. I remember being at a meeting recently and hearing about Philadelphia's library system. Basically if they didn't get the budget passed, they were going to close the entire library system. Every branch. Even though I don't live anywhere near there, I responded by contacting the local goverment. I just checked their page. The bill keeping them in business passed 32 to 17.
And yea gods, have we been busy! I secretly laugh when I get the gate count now. The reasoning they gave for us being the ones under the knife was that we weren't being used. I have only been with the system for 7 years this upcoming February. I think that I have been at this branch for maybe going on 3 years. We got a gate counter within that time and when I checked it tonight it was over 266,000 people who have gone and out. Even halfing it, it would be 133,000 people coming in.
And we aren't busy? Yep, that's us... just a bunch of library slackers twittling our thumbs.
Good night and Yay for Libraries!
Why? Well, after months of pins and needles, we are still open the same hours at the same branch. Somehow the people spoke up and wanted us open. It was humbling how many people came into the library to tell us how we were important. Some signed or created petitions, some contacted the local politicans, some wrote the paper. It was so cool.
It is amazing to me just what an importance libraries have everywhere. I remember being at a meeting recently and hearing about Philadelphia's library system. Basically if they didn't get the budget passed, they were going to close the entire library system. Every branch. Even though I don't live anywhere near there, I responded by contacting the local goverment. I just checked their page. The bill keeping them in business passed 32 to 17.
And yea gods, have we been busy! I secretly laugh when I get the gate count now. The reasoning they gave for us being the ones under the knife was that we weren't being used. I have only been with the system for 7 years this upcoming February. I think that I have been at this branch for maybe going on 3 years. We got a gate counter within that time and when I checked it tonight it was over 266,000 people who have gone and out. Even halfing it, it would be 133,000 people coming in.
And we aren't busy? Yep, that's us... just a bunch of library slackers twittling our thumbs.
Good night and Yay for Libraries!
Monday, September 21, 2009
Limbo
I feel a bit stuck. Although good news appeared on the library front, I am still holding off on an celebrations until knowing for sure. There are still changes on the horizon. I am just not sure how it will affect me.
I want to make plans. But being stuck I can't. It makes me feel a bit frustrated and sad. I rather like moving forward. I feel like a hamster on a wheel. A bit like Bill Murray's character in Groundhog's Day. Nothing changes.
Luckily life with B is always changing. We had a good talk the other night. I like that we are still figuring each other out. I could only go one way down a road before having to pull on a side road to turn around. I was sure that it was a way full of mutant zombies. They were going to pop out of the ground at any moment. Not only could he understand my fear but we started figuring out battle plans and laughing. It is lovely to have someone to laugh with like that. Not only that but the talk we had was about some of my not so laughable fears and he just held me tight and told me it would be all right. That we would figure it out together.
Good night. Guten tag : )
I want to make plans. But being stuck I can't. It makes me feel a bit frustrated and sad. I rather like moving forward. I feel like a hamster on a wheel. A bit like Bill Murray's character in Groundhog's Day. Nothing changes.
Luckily life with B is always changing. We had a good talk the other night. I like that we are still figuring each other out. I could only go one way down a road before having to pull on a side road to turn around. I was sure that it was a way full of mutant zombies. They were going to pop out of the ground at any moment. Not only could he understand my fear but we started figuring out battle plans and laughing. It is lovely to have someone to laugh with like that. Not only that but the talk we had was about some of my not so laughable fears and he just held me tight and told me it would be all right. That we would figure it out together.
Good night. Guten tag : )
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Birthday Weekend
Today was B's birthday. I don't think we really celebrate the number as much as the fact that he was born. We had a low key day at his request. I got to surprise him at Outback with singing and dessert. It was so funny. Thus far he has yet to remember that I do it each year. LOL I had to laugh though as he went to the bathroom before hand. The guys all came out to see and the line stopped as they realized that he was gone. They scrambled back into the kitchen until he came back.
I also surprised him with a singing cat card. The cats meowed the Happy Birthday song. He opened it and the cats came right over. They all wanted to figure out where we were hiding the new cats.
I had a good day Saturday with J and T. We talked for a while and then researched dreams. I had had one interesting one the other day. I dreamed that Dad, Mom, P and I were at Grandmother's. But the house was a one level ranch and located in the Middle East. Then all of sudden the house was attacked by terrorists. They weren't going to hurt me because I was married. I had to show them my ring. Then they gave me some accupunture needles because I had to put the number 26 on my eyeballs so they could film me. At the end as they left, one said "Good bye" and I woke up. B had gone off to do a game with the guys. He said that it had been held in one of the guy's new gaming room. Apparently there was some discussion of turning into the Bat Cave.
Good night and dream on.
I also surprised him with a singing cat card. The cats meowed the Happy Birthday song. He opened it and the cats came right over. They all wanted to figure out where we were hiding the new cats.
I had a good day Saturday with J and T. We talked for a while and then researched dreams. I had had one interesting one the other day. I dreamed that Dad, Mom, P and I were at Grandmother's. But the house was a one level ranch and located in the Middle East. Then all of sudden the house was attacked by terrorists. They weren't going to hurt me because I was married. I had to show them my ring. Then they gave me some accupunture needles because I had to put the number 26 on my eyeballs so they could film me. At the end as they left, one said "Good bye" and I woke up. B had gone off to do a game with the guys. He said that it had been held in one of the guy's new gaming room. Apparently there was some discussion of turning into the Bat Cave.
Good night and dream on.
Wednesday, September 02, 2009
Followers
It has been ages since I last posted. My web life recently has been diverted into Facebook. It is a bit like blogging and Myspace. You post a couple of lines of update and then there is other social stuff and games you can do on it.
There is a Mobster game that I play on it now called ... well, Mobsters : ) My handle in that game is Pissed Off Librarian. Right now it is more like Librarian in Limbo. No one knows what is going on with our branch, our patrons, our jobs... hence the limbo. Personally I wish it were the other kind. The kind that involves Jamaica, beaches, a staff and tons of rum.
B and I have been busy getting the apartment ready to show off to the fam over Labor Day. It has been really lovely setting up house with him. LOL Even if he does want everything Star Wars themed. At least my Hello Kitty is contained mostly by my bathroom.
Apparently there is a new gadget for Blogs so that people can follow your blog. I checked. I am a poor prophet. I only have one follower. It is hard for me to be a follower. Especially when I want to do it my way. I am so stubborn. I have had many a discussion with God about that character trait : D It is so hard to let him lead. One of the message I kept from a Happening a long time ago was to Let Go and Let God. I have to stop and focus on that when I get too sure that I can do it all.
Good day and Let Go... : D
There is a Mobster game that I play on it now called ... well, Mobsters : ) My handle in that game is Pissed Off Librarian. Right now it is more like Librarian in Limbo. No one knows what is going on with our branch, our patrons, our jobs... hence the limbo. Personally I wish it were the other kind. The kind that involves Jamaica, beaches, a staff and tons of rum.
B and I have been busy getting the apartment ready to show off to the fam over Labor Day. It has been really lovely setting up house with him. LOL Even if he does want everything Star Wars themed. At least my Hello Kitty is contained mostly by my bathroom.
Apparently there is a new gadget for Blogs so that people can follow your blog. I checked. I am a poor prophet. I only have one follower. It is hard for me to be a follower. Especially when I want to do it my way. I am so stubborn. I have had many a discussion with God about that character trait : D It is so hard to let him lead. One of the message I kept from a Happening a long time ago was to Let Go and Let God. I have to stop and focus on that when I get too sure that I can do it all.
Good day and Let Go... : D
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Irony
Sometime in the last couple of weeks, I found out that my library's hours were being halfed. The staff would be moved to other branches and the collection reduced. One person who came in and had talked to the local council person said that the council person had been told that no one goes to our library.
Now about 2 or 3 years ago, we had a gate counter installed. Today at around noon, the counter read at a little over 235,000 counts. Which means about 115,000 people walked in and then out again in the last several years. And we aren't being used.
Not to mention I was just notified that I won an award. And so did my branch manager for our work in the community. How weird is that? I mean, I'm thrilled. It is nice to see that someone recognizes that I am awesome but the timing is just plain off.
Weirdness and wonderful in the same day.
Good night and good night.
Now about 2 or 3 years ago, we had a gate counter installed. Today at around noon, the counter read at a little over 235,000 counts. Which means about 115,000 people walked in and then out again in the last several years. And we aren't being used.
Not to mention I was just notified that I won an award. And so did my branch manager for our work in the community. How weird is that? I mean, I'm thrilled. It is nice to see that someone recognizes that I am awesome but the timing is just plain off.
Weirdness and wonderful in the same day.
Good night and good night.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Why is 6 afraid of 7?
Because 7 8 9.
We've been celebrating the fact that today is 07/08/09. No other reason than a good joke.
We're down to the last couple of boxes. I would have already unpacked them but I need another bookcase. This has caused a bit of a dilema though. B and I have never been very good at putting things together. We are not a "handy" couple by any stretch of the imagination. LOL In fact, the last time we put a bookcase together, it broke into pieces when we tried to carry it out to door. I mean, one minute bookcase and then next I am holding two boards. And the predone ones are majorly expensive. What to do? I figure we'll rotate. It will be like finding new books : P
I know we are both looking forward to exploring the Capital this weekend. I emailed Aunt C and Uncle J and we're hoping to meet up with them, Aunt K and Grandmother too on Sunday. That should be super coolness. I'm still not sure where to meet up with them since we'll be in DC sans transportation.
Good day and good day!
We've been celebrating the fact that today is 07/08/09. No other reason than a good joke.
We're down to the last couple of boxes. I would have already unpacked them but I need another bookcase. This has caused a bit of a dilema though. B and I have never been very good at putting things together. We are not a "handy" couple by any stretch of the imagination. LOL In fact, the last time we put a bookcase together, it broke into pieces when we tried to carry it out to door. I mean, one minute bookcase and then next I am holding two boards. And the predone ones are majorly expensive. What to do? I figure we'll rotate. It will be like finding new books : P
I know we are both looking forward to exploring the Capital this weekend. I emailed Aunt C and Uncle J and we're hoping to meet up with them, Aunt K and Grandmother too on Sunday. That should be super coolness. I'm still not sure where to meet up with them since we'll be in DC sans transportation.
Good day and good day!
Friday, June 19, 2009
My fort of Boxes
I prayed for the moving guys today. This weekend is supposed to be over 100 here and I am sure that they are working.
We are all moved in. Things were packed and the movers complimented us on how everything was done when they got there. : ) Then it was done. If they have come the day before, it was major chaos. I let B. pack up the office. I was , as normal, trying to do it all by myself. And getting frustrated. That is so hard for me.
I always want to do it all myself. I had to force myself not even to enter the room. Otherwise I would start taking over.
I had to laugh though. We had different priorities on what room should be unpacked first. For him, it was the computer and office setup and for me, it was the kitchen and bathroom : P But we packed together and we unpack together.
Another funny thing has been the dreams. For the first several days, I had weird dreams. One was about eating a chili cheese hotdog. The other was working at a library that was only open from 12:30 to 2:30 and at 2:30 exactly all power was cut off in the building. I had to feel my way out.
And the most peculiar was the one where I was driving with Mom and the power went out. Not just the streets but the cars. We got out to walk and I remember walking past a car with a family inside. When I looked in the car windows, it looked like they lived in it. The look that the little girl inside was just so unbelievable sad. All the cars were stopped all ascew and just ahead of those cars, there were bodies lying all around.
But the last one was the night before's. I dreamed I made the kitties ketchup sandwiches. I am never where my brain comes up with this stuff.
Good night and dream not of ketchup : P
We are all moved in. Things were packed and the movers complimented us on how everything was done when they got there. : ) Then it was done. If they have come the day before, it was major chaos. I let B. pack up the office. I was , as normal, trying to do it all by myself. And getting frustrated. That is so hard for me.
I always want to do it all myself. I had to force myself not even to enter the room. Otherwise I would start taking over.
I had to laugh though. We had different priorities on what room should be unpacked first. For him, it was the computer and office setup and for me, it was the kitchen and bathroom : P But we packed together and we unpack together.
Another funny thing has been the dreams. For the first several days, I had weird dreams. One was about eating a chili cheese hotdog. The other was working at a library that was only open from 12:30 to 2:30 and at 2:30 exactly all power was cut off in the building. I had to feel my way out.
And the most peculiar was the one where I was driving with Mom and the power went out. Not just the streets but the cars. We got out to walk and I remember walking past a car with a family inside. When I looked in the car windows, it looked like they lived in it. The look that the little girl inside was just so unbelievable sad. All the cars were stopped all ascew and just ahead of those cars, there were bodies lying all around.
But the last one was the night before's. I dreamed I made the kitties ketchup sandwiches. I am never where my brain comes up with this stuff.
Good night and dream not of ketchup : P
Friday, June 12, 2009
A Sword, Strippers and Children
A couple of nights ago, I came home after dinner with T and asked B. what he thought about the name of Patricia Hazel for a girl's name. Every now and then, we discuss what we would like to name our kids. Patricia Hazel is my current favorite for girl and John Andrew is his current favorite for a boy.
No worries, people. This is not my way of announcing anything. We just have decided to give it a year to work on saving for a house and getting my health all taken care of and then working on kids.
Although after this story, I may change my mind. I have a friend. She is a lovely, sweet woman who thinks of many before her own needs. She came in to work this morning stating that she hadn't gotten any sleep. I was curious so I asked if she wanted to talk about it. She shook her head no. I then asked which daughter was it about. She just grimaced. She has three kids. One daughter lives at home with her and the other in a house that she owns. They are both about my age. Or as someone put it today, old enough to know better but not enough to care....
Well, she got a phone call from the out of the house daughter, N. at 3 or 4 this morning. N. was quite upset. She had just had her car window stabbed with a sword. Yeah. A sword. Apparently she was dropping a friend off and her two other friends were in the backseat. Well, they got to the address. The friend got out as another guy came out of the house. A whole lot of yelling and cussing insued. Then a whole bunch of strippers came out of the house. Yeah, strippers. And the yelling and cussing went up a couple knouches.
Apparently one of the strippers was more than just a little upset or something because she started attacking N's car. She was throwing all sorts of things at it causing all sorts of dents and scratches.
And then she got a sword and tried to put it through the car window. It was actually thrust hard enough to break the glass and put a hole in the window. N called the police and her mom. Well, then N decided the police, who had decided it was a she said she said situation, weren't doing enough. So she decided to yell at them and accuse them of siding with the strippers.
Woa. And all this time she is on the phone with my friend, JC. With all the commotion, JC's husband wakes up. In his Phillipino accent, he begans saying son of beech, son of beech, that's it. These girls are crazy. We are moving to the mountains. JC is half fussed at N and half trying to calm her husband down. The situation finally calmed down and N didn't get arrested thankfully.
Now, I really feel bad for my friend. She really has a great heart. I know she has been really frustrated dealing with her daughters. But I could NOT stop laughing while she is telling me this. At one point, I told her I just can't shake this vision of a Red Sonja stripper stabbing the car.
And they say library workers have a quiet and dull time... just tell me this when did you go to work and get a sword and stripper story?
Good night and watch out for sword carrying strippers.
No worries, people. This is not my way of announcing anything. We just have decided to give it a year to work on saving for a house and getting my health all taken care of and then working on kids.
Although after this story, I may change my mind. I have a friend. She is a lovely, sweet woman who thinks of many before her own needs. She came in to work this morning stating that she hadn't gotten any sleep. I was curious so I asked if she wanted to talk about it. She shook her head no. I then asked which daughter was it about. She just grimaced. She has three kids. One daughter lives at home with her and the other in a house that she owns. They are both about my age. Or as someone put it today, old enough to know better but not enough to care....
Well, she got a phone call from the out of the house daughter, N. at 3 or 4 this morning. N. was quite upset. She had just had her car window stabbed with a sword. Yeah. A sword. Apparently she was dropping a friend off and her two other friends were in the backseat. Well, they got to the address. The friend got out as another guy came out of the house. A whole lot of yelling and cussing insued. Then a whole bunch of strippers came out of the house. Yeah, strippers. And the yelling and cussing went up a couple knouches.
Apparently one of the strippers was more than just a little upset or something because she started attacking N's car. She was throwing all sorts of things at it causing all sorts of dents and scratches.
And then she got a sword and tried to put it through the car window. It was actually thrust hard enough to break the glass and put a hole in the window. N called the police and her mom. Well, then N decided the police, who had decided it was a she said she said situation, weren't doing enough. So she decided to yell at them and accuse them of siding with the strippers.
Woa. And all this time she is on the phone with my friend, JC. With all the commotion, JC's husband wakes up. In his Phillipino accent, he begans saying son of beech, son of beech, that's it. These girls are crazy. We are moving to the mountains. JC is half fussed at N and half trying to calm her husband down. The situation finally calmed down and N didn't get arrested thankfully.
Now, I really feel bad for my friend. She really has a great heart. I know she has been really frustrated dealing with her daughters. But I could NOT stop laughing while she is telling me this. At one point, I told her I just can't shake this vision of a Red Sonja stripper stabbing the car.
And they say library workers have a quiet and dull time... just tell me this when did you go to work and get a sword and stripper story?
Good night and watch out for sword carrying strippers.
Tuesday, June 09, 2009
Stonehenge is now a flower bed path...
I notice things. Some of them because they are out of place in my normal days doings. Some because they are something I see every day and they change.
Saturday, I noticed a man walking down the street. Just an ordinary man. Normal clothes, normal shoes, normal everything but one thing. He has carrying a cross. Not just in his hands or arms. It was over his shoulder. It was taller than he was. My first thought was Pick up your cross and follow me. And then I thought that it was better than Jesus' own. It had wheels on it.
The second thing I noticed was something I drive by regularly. There is a corner on a street near my house. It is a plain ordinary corner. Someone used to plant wild flowers there. They also used to have a bunch of rocks put there. They were just plain rocks, about the size of a good sized book or bigger. I decided it was our own version of Stonehenge. I didn't know how it had been put together. I just enjoyed seeing it. It has been through different formations and for a while recently it had been missing. It eventually got put back up though. But right now it has become a border. A flower bed border... I am sad to see it used so practically.
I really liked that it changed and I never knew if it would still be there or how it would look. The joy was in the not knowing. Perhaps it will change again. Or maybe the joy is in the not knowing but hoping it will be back. I'll just have faith in the unseen and the unknown.
I have faith in the unseen and unknown God. Part of my joy is him is in the learning and the seeing.
Good day and keep your eyes peeled. You'd be amazed at all you see.
Saturday, I noticed a man walking down the street. Just an ordinary man. Normal clothes, normal shoes, normal everything but one thing. He has carrying a cross. Not just in his hands or arms. It was over his shoulder. It was taller than he was. My first thought was Pick up your cross and follow me. And then I thought that it was better than Jesus' own. It had wheels on it.
The second thing I noticed was something I drive by regularly. There is a corner on a street near my house. It is a plain ordinary corner. Someone used to plant wild flowers there. They also used to have a bunch of rocks put there. They were just plain rocks, about the size of a good sized book or bigger. I decided it was our own version of Stonehenge. I didn't know how it had been put together. I just enjoyed seeing it. It has been through different formations and for a while recently it had been missing. It eventually got put back up though. But right now it has become a border. A flower bed border... I am sad to see it used so practically.
I really liked that it changed and I never knew if it would still be there or how it would look. The joy was in the not knowing. Perhaps it will change again. Or maybe the joy is in the not knowing but hoping it will be back. I'll just have faith in the unseen and the unknown.
I have faith in the unseen and unknown God. Part of my joy is him is in the learning and the seeing.
Good day and keep your eyes peeled. You'd be amazed at all you see.
Thursday, May 28, 2009
L'eau, Aqua and Water
That is what I drink primarily now. I have just finished off my fourth bottle today. Neither my primary or my cardiologist want me drinking much of any thing else.
Today I talked up the summer library programs. It was so much fun. The kids really enjoyed "I ain't gonna Paint No More" book and the My aunt came back song. I never realize how thirsty I am and how much my feet hurt until after the program. I love just doing the stories though. That is my favorite part of the job. The having fun with the kids and talking about and reading books.
I wonder sometimes what has happened to some of the kids that I used to work with. My first internship kids would be graduating either this year or next. How cool is that? This year I've got three people graduating. T. , S. and M. I am very proud of them all : )
Good day and dream big.
Today I talked up the summer library programs. It was so much fun. The kids really enjoyed "I ain't gonna Paint No More" book and the My aunt came back song. I never realize how thirsty I am and how much my feet hurt until after the program. I love just doing the stories though. That is my favorite part of the job. The having fun with the kids and talking about and reading books.
I wonder sometimes what has happened to some of the kids that I used to work with. My first internship kids would be graduating either this year or next. How cool is that? This year I've got three people graduating. T. , S. and M. I am very proud of them all : )
Good day and dream big.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Feeling better... finally
I have had a bad congestion for about two weeks. I am finally starting to feel not so fuzzy. I had a lovely day yesterday with J. We headed off to do some shopping at Cato and WallyWorld. It is so funny to me that we have such different tastes but we are pretty much the same size right now. I got some really cute things for work and B liked the pjs I picked out : P
B and I headed out today to see the new Star Trek movie. It was really good and even better was spending time with him. He finally got the info for his business trip in July. I am planning to spend the first weekend with him but he is going to be there for a week. I can't even imagine being here without him. I just love him beyond words.
Tomorrow we plan just to hang here and pack. The three major rooms I hope to get done are the office, kitchen and bedroom. Then that should be most of it. Even though we don't move for a while yet : ) I just like being ready. Plus it gives me time to clear out stuff. I think we will both be ready by time is comes around.
Good night and I love B.
B and I headed out today to see the new Star Trek movie. It was really good and even better was spending time with him. He finally got the info for his business trip in July. I am planning to spend the first weekend with him but he is going to be there for a week. I can't even imagine being here without him. I just love him beyond words.
Tomorrow we plan just to hang here and pack. The three major rooms I hope to get done are the office, kitchen and bedroom. Then that should be most of it. Even though we don't move for a while yet : ) I just like being ready. Plus it gives me time to clear out stuff. I think we will both be ready by time is comes around.
Good night and I love B.
Friday, May 01, 2009
Blast from the Past
I tend to think of myself as quiet and nice. And fun sometimes too. I don't think of myself as memorable.
Yesterday I had a training class and someone recognized me. He was someone I worked with like ten years ago. I have had that happen before. Someone from high school has come into the library. There was another high schooler who came into my children's program with her kids about six years ago.
The longest were the girl who about 5 or 6 years ago remembered me from 3rd grade and the my first grade teacher who was still working as a teacher who I subbed for. Talk about head flip.
It just seems so strange. It makes me wonder what I did that stuck out in someone's head. Especially the teacher. I mean she has had to have seen hundreds if not thousands of kids. What was so special about me? It does make me glad though. I mean, if I had been horrible or mean, maybe they wouldn't have said anything...
Good day and remember when....
Yesterday I had a training class and someone recognized me. He was someone I worked with like ten years ago. I have had that happen before. Someone from high school has come into the library. There was another high schooler who came into my children's program with her kids about six years ago.
The longest were the girl who about 5 or 6 years ago remembered me from 3rd grade and the my first grade teacher who was still working as a teacher who I subbed for. Talk about head flip.
It just seems so strange. It makes me wonder what I did that stuck out in someone's head. Especially the teacher. I mean she has had to have seen hundreds if not thousands of kids. What was so special about me? It does make me glad though. I mean, if I had been horrible or mean, maybe they wouldn't have said anything...
Good day and remember when....
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Curse it all, I napped!
I can't get to sleep. I had a bad headache when I came home today. So I laid down.
Big mistake. I napped and now when it is time to get to sleep, nothing doing. I mainly can't get my head to shut up. I started thinking about work tomorrow, storytime, Mother's Day, calling sibs.... on and on.
We are waiting to hear the fate of our moving. Supposedly we have a seller for this place and our landlady wanted us to move out as of the 27th of May. But I haven't heard a definite yet. Pins and needles.
We sent our last (?) rent check in with the letter of intent to move on Monday. And we have already done our deposit for the new place. I would like to just know how much packing time I have.
Good night/morning and oh, happy day!
Big mistake. I napped and now when it is time to get to sleep, nothing doing. I mainly can't get my head to shut up. I started thinking about work tomorrow, storytime, Mother's Day, calling sibs.... on and on.
We are waiting to hear the fate of our moving. Supposedly we have a seller for this place and our landlady wanted us to move out as of the 27th of May. But I haven't heard a definite yet. Pins and needles.
We sent our last (?) rent check in with the letter of intent to move on Monday. And we have already done our deposit for the new place. I would like to just know how much packing time I have.
Good night/morning and oh, happy day!
Monday, April 27, 2009
Fostering Reading
I have to teach a class tomorrow on the importance of fostering reading. It is to a bunch of teen moms or moms-to-be. I hope something I say will touch at least one of them or make them think.
I can barely imagine being pregant now much less when I was a teen. I am still on a wait and see as result are being figured out. I meet with my doctor at the end of the month and I need to schedule my follow up with my cardiologist. Once I get a better handle on my health stuff, then we can start figuring out the kids thing.
He would like two. I would like at least one. Everyone just wants us to get started. But it is important to me to have a little time to work on being a wife. The best thing I can give a child is a loving family to come into. Plus a love of books. Both of us read everything we can get our hands on. So hopefully no worries there.
That actually has been the hard part about packing the books up. I have to keep myself from making a pile for myself.
Good night and happy reading.
I can barely imagine being pregant now much less when I was a teen. I am still on a wait and see as result are being figured out. I meet with my doctor at the end of the month and I need to schedule my follow up with my cardiologist. Once I get a better handle on my health stuff, then we can start figuring out the kids thing.
He would like two. I would like at least one. Everyone just wants us to get started. But it is important to me to have a little time to work on being a wife. The best thing I can give a child is a loving family to come into. Plus a love of books. Both of us read everything we can get our hands on. So hopefully no worries there.
That actually has been the hard part about packing the books up. I have to keep myself from making a pile for myself.
Good night and happy reading.
Friday, April 10, 2009
I wish I could figure out my phone...
I have a newish cell phone. It allegedly can upload pics to the computer and download music. I say allegedly because I have yet to be able to do either. I've taken a number of photos with my phone but that is as far as I have gotten. I have the cable to transfer them and a micro SD card.
But the card won't stay in the phone. That most definitely makes for a hard time in transfer.
Ugh! Two steps forward and three back.
I've been having to wear a heart monitor for the last week and I have to wear it for another two. The monitor part looks like a Blackberry : ) I haven't really felt the same fast heartbeat that I had before since having to wear the monitor.'
: ) I am bad at getting my symptoms to be caught. It is like I feel better when I set up the doctor's appointment : P
Good day and good day.
But the card won't stay in the phone. That most definitely makes for a hard time in transfer.
Ugh! Two steps forward and three back.
I've been having to wear a heart monitor for the last week and I have to wear it for another two. The monitor part looks like a Blackberry : ) I haven't really felt the same fast heartbeat that I had before since having to wear the monitor.'
: ) I am bad at getting my symptoms to be caught. It is like I feel better when I set up the doctor's appointment : P
Good day and good day.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
For a quiet girl I can make the silence loud
I drove quietly home today. I had yelled at B and gotten so mad that I couldn't talk to him. When we got home, I took in the tea and he took in the chicken dinner we had gotten. I put the tea down and went upstairs to the bedroom and shut the door.
I was mad. We had just been visiting J. I had been a bit confusing to him and I was trying to explain why I did what I did. He said that J. hadn't wanted visitors. I said I thought she would rather have someone visit to take her mind off the pain.
I felt like he was reading my sister better than I was. I felt stupid and thought he was accusing me of causing her pain.
He was trying to explain and I told him to shut up.
We don't fight often. And so much of it is me reading into what he is saying. For a reading whiz, I so read him wrong. Partly it is a release. I am stressed about things and I redirect that stress at him to let go of it.
Partly it is I am used to being held at arm's length with things being hidden in my relationships. I am not used to an honest guy. I mean I've had two relationships end by the guy moving away and never talking again to me. That'll do something to a girl.
We talked again after I got up. We kissed and made up. I will always love him even if we fight. I'd rather fight with him then live without him.
Good night and return to your corners....
I was mad. We had just been visiting J. I had been a bit confusing to him and I was trying to explain why I did what I did. He said that J. hadn't wanted visitors. I said I thought she would rather have someone visit to take her mind off the pain.
I felt like he was reading my sister better than I was. I felt stupid and thought he was accusing me of causing her pain.
He was trying to explain and I told him to shut up.
We don't fight often. And so much of it is me reading into what he is saying. For a reading whiz, I so read him wrong. Partly it is a release. I am stressed about things and I redirect that stress at him to let go of it.
Partly it is I am used to being held at arm's length with things being hidden in my relationships. I am not used to an honest guy. I mean I've had two relationships end by the guy moving away and never talking again to me. That'll do something to a girl.
We talked again after I got up. We kissed and made up. I will always love him even if we fight. I'd rather fight with him then live without him.
Good night and return to your corners....
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
A little Lupine
So from a feline post to a lupine today. My doc visit went just fine. They don't have a clear picture on the thyroid. So they took more blood to do some more tests.
The reason I am lupine is I have Wolffe-Parkinson-White syndrome. It is something I was born with and it basically means occassionally my electrical system in my heart causes it to beat fast for no reason. The doc is scheduling me to see a special cardiologist which deals with the electrical system of the heart. It isn't fatal and can be treated with with a beta blocker or a nonevasive surgery. I'll know more after my cardiologist visit.
Oh and I medalled today. We had our staff day and I was in two events. The Database Scavenger Hunt and the Brain Bowl. I got gold for both : )
Good day and the beat goes on....
The reason I am lupine is I have Wolffe-Parkinson-White syndrome. It is something I was born with and it basically means occassionally my electrical system in my heart causes it to beat fast for no reason. The doc is scheduling me to see a special cardiologist which deals with the electrical system of the heart. It isn't fatal and can be treated with with a beta blocker or a nonevasive surgery. I'll know more after my cardiologist visit.
Oh and I medalled today. We had our staff day and I was in two events. The Database Scavenger Hunt and the Brain Bowl. I got gold for both : )
Good day and the beat goes on....
Saturday, March 14, 2009
I love kids but....
We went to the Irish Festival today. We had wandered here and there enjoying Irish food, dance and music. To top off the day, I decided to get my face painted. Just some harmless fun... But....we were waiting in the long line of mostly kids and a sparse population of others (teens and adults). It was almost my turn and I had been impressed with the artist. She was doing a great job. All of us were quite excited when it was our turn.
When it was my turn, I got skipped. I got skipped by this kindergardener named Caleb. He had been getting more and more excited, turning around several times to tell his mom that he was getting the Dark Knight face painting. He had been standing right beside me and so when the kid left out the chair in front of me, he hopped right up no hestitation.
And I had to be the mean adult. I had to tell Caleb it wasn't his turn. Then I had to close my eyes to get my face done and listen to Caleb's mom behind me tell him it wasn't wrong and that he would have a turn in a second. But I loved my face painting and I had waited my turn.
I so often give in to kids. In my work as a children's librarian, I get nervous and tired and cranky. But for kids, I put it aside to give them a great storytime. I put a lot of work into crafts that may see 2 or 3 kids show up for. I spend time being a tutor or game player or an adult that just listens.
It was just this time I didn't. I stood up for what I wanted.
Good day and quid pro quo kids!
Friday, March 13, 2009
How am I?
The doctor wanted my blood tested again for the thyroid. We have much to talk about me doc and I. I see her again on Tuesday and I have one more question for her. I am so tired all the time now. I usually nap at least once during the day. And I used to wake up feeling refreshed. Now I just wake up tired.
On another note, we got a Wii. B and I have really been enjoying playing together. The one I think we both like best is the tennis. And it is very much a workout. LOL I almost took out the fan cord though. And I have begun packing and cleaning out. Our lease isn't up until June but I wanted enough time to clean out stuff.
I am really looking forward to moving. The new place seems great. And I have so missed natural light. That was one major drawback to a townhouse.
Good day and let the light shine in.
On another note, we got a Wii. B and I have really been enjoying playing together. The one I think we both like best is the tennis. And it is very much a workout. LOL I almost took out the fan cord though. And I have begun packing and cleaning out. Our lease isn't up until June but I wanted enough time to clean out stuff.
I am really looking forward to moving. The new place seems great. And I have so missed natural light. That was one major drawback to a townhouse.
Good day and let the light shine in.
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
The wonders of Technology
So yesterday, with much nervousness, I headed off to get my portable heart monitor. I had to go to the local hospital for this Holder monitor. It basically is these electrodes that are placed around my chest and they are attached to a recorder.
LOL The recorder is basically a walkman. Or at least it looks a lot like one. And not even a CD walkman. No, it is a cassette tape. I wondered where they all went. Well, it looks like they went to the hospital. I wonder if I could borrow one to make an eighties mix tape : P
So after getting the darn thing on and after trying to be so careful with it, I went in this morning to get the tape and battery replaced. Wouldn't you know it.... the tape had gotten caught up on one of the knobs and it had only recorded maybe as much as me leaving the office and out to my car. Barely 10 minutes. Not exactly the 24 hours that they had wanted.
So now I have a new machine and I have to keep this machine on until Thursday. Ugh! The worst is it itches just slightly. Not enough that I scratch but enough that it makes me want to...
But I did still feel like a fast heartbeat on Saturday and Sunday and my blood pressure did go up so I will keep the evil itchy machine on.
Good day and the beat goes on....
LOL The recorder is basically a walkman. Or at least it looks a lot like one. And not even a CD walkman. No, it is a cassette tape. I wondered where they all went. Well, it looks like they went to the hospital. I wonder if I could borrow one to make an eighties mix tape : P
So after getting the darn thing on and after trying to be so careful with it, I went in this morning to get the tape and battery replaced. Wouldn't you know it.... the tape had gotten caught up on one of the knobs and it had only recorded maybe as much as me leaving the office and out to my car. Barely 10 minutes. Not exactly the 24 hours that they had wanted.
So now I have a new machine and I have to keep this machine on until Thursday. Ugh! The worst is it itches just slightly. Not enough that I scratch but enough that it makes me want to...
But I did still feel like a fast heartbeat on Saturday and Sunday and my blood pressure did go up so I will keep the evil itchy machine on.
Good day and the beat goes on....
Friday, February 27, 2009
Now for the so-so
I got sick last weekend. It wasn't pretty. And for Sunday and Monday, I couldn't really sleep. Not because of being sick but it felt like my heart was pounding. No matter whether I was walking around the apartment or trying to rest, it felt like it was racing. I'd take my pulse and it would be fine but it still felt like a pounding in my chest.
The week before I had felt really run down and felt a little short of breath but felt better with the vacay so I just chalked it up to nerves or stress.
I finally told B about it Tuesday after I made a doctor's appointment. We went and pulse and blood pressure was fine. When I told her about being sick, she thought it might have been dehydration. So lots of fluid that day and since. It feels more normal. But she did schedule for me to have a portable heart monitor for Monday and Tuesday just to check and make sure.
When she told me that, I smiled a bit. See, when I went to see Grandfather the last time, they did something similiar to him and he was all excited about it. He even wanted me to take a picture of him in it. I wouldn't make B do that but I'm sure I will think of him Monday.
What was even funnier was the fact that I took Basil (one of our cats) into the vet and pretty much we had the same tests done (sans the heart monitor). But we got tested for thryoid and found out we both have very slight heart mummurs.
The hardest thing is trying not to read up on heart related diseases. This would be the one time reading would stress me and not relieve my stress.
Good night and stay cool, boy...
The week before I had felt really run down and felt a little short of breath but felt better with the vacay so I just chalked it up to nerves or stress.
I finally told B about it Tuesday after I made a doctor's appointment. We went and pulse and blood pressure was fine. When I told her about being sick, she thought it might have been dehydration. So lots of fluid that day and since. It feels more normal. But she did schedule for me to have a portable heart monitor for Monday and Tuesday just to check and make sure.
When she told me that, I smiled a bit. See, when I went to see Grandfather the last time, they did something similiar to him and he was all excited about it. He even wanted me to take a picture of him in it. I wouldn't make B do that but I'm sure I will think of him Monday.
What was even funnier was the fact that I took Basil (one of our cats) into the vet and pretty much we had the same tests done (sans the heart monitor). But we got tested for thryoid and found out we both have very slight heart mummurs.
The hardest thing is trying not to read up on heart related diseases. This would be the one time reading would stress me and not relieve my stress.
Good night and stay cool, boy...
I've had the good...
Beloved and I on a surrey (horse and carriage)
Me at the port
Shots from the Glass Bottom Boat
More scenes... they told us we were right above a wreck.... not exactly reassuring with sharks below...
Nuf' said
Beloved on the Fascination
Look, honey... a manatee!
I ordered a special Happy Anniversary decorations package for the room : DTuesday, February 10, 2009
When I can't think of anything else...
1.YOUR REAL NAME: Eve Harm
2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle name) Mae Wilson
3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) Jack Zade
4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your firstname) Harsm
5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal) Rainbow Cat
6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born) Mercy Jacksonville
7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Blue Thai Iced Tea
8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name) Have
9.ROCK STAR NAME:(current pets name, current street name) Basil Oak
10. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you lived when born) Noddon 59th
11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) Eveizzle
12.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, firsttwo letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last threeletters of your last name) Vrmevehar
13.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets) Black Hazel
14. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume, fav candy) Sunflowers Chocolate
2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle name) Mae Wilson
3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad) Jack Zade
4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your firstname) Harsm
5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal) Rainbow Cat
6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born) Mercy Jacksonville
7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning) The Blue Thai Iced Tea
8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name) Have
9.ROCK STAR NAME:(current pets name, current street name) Basil Oak
10. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you lived when born) Noddon 59th
11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle) Eveizzle
12.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, firsttwo letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last threeletters of your last name) Vrmevehar
13.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets) Black Hazel
14. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume, fav candy) Sunflowers Chocolate
Saturday, February 07, 2009
They let me have 30 minutes more
I love my kitties but they are driving me bonkers. Henri decided to put his entire fuzzy blanket into the water bowl this morning. And Basil spent 30 minutes sitting on me trying to get me up. I got a magnet the other day that said "There is no snooze button for a cat who wants breakfast". Tell me about it.... Though it has kept me on track with the getting up a little early to work out. I actually did an entire week. Which trust me, for me, that is awesome.
In other news, the lady that owns the townhouse we are renting is selling the place. We are still okay til June but wow... I think we half expected it. I think the realtor was also kind of feeling me out for the possibility that we might want it. But we don't want to buy anything right now. I know that there are great deals now but not if he gets a permenant job in say Cleveland. Then we become the people trying to sell in this market. No thanks!
Only 6 days til the cruise. I am so looking forward to it. Just time alone with B and I . No cats, no work, just relaxing. We have an inside cabin again. As nice it is to have natural light, I love sleeping in complete darkness. It justs makes for a hard sleep.
Good day and a man walks into a bar....ouch! LOL
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Do the Motions or the Solution?
Today, they came again. I know. Sounds like the start of a great sci-fi novel. But no, it was just the glass people. This time, the person they sent was C and he decided not to leave until my leak was fixed. Finally someone who saw beyond the work.
It took a bit of fiddling but he tested it three or four times and my car didn't leak. Holy Hannah! I don't know if it will hold but it did make me feel slightly (begrudingly) better about the company.
I have to remember C and his lesson of do the solution. I hear the same thing day in and day out. And they are just like me. I just wanted a solution. It takes a bit to get there but it can be done.
I also got to do a storytime today. My second in the last two weeks. Trust me, after months of nada, this is like butter.... : P I really enjoyed it and the kids seemed to as well. We talked a bit about Black History Month. And peace. Todd Par has a book called the Peace Book. He talks about what peace is... you know peace is hugging a friend or keeping the streets clean or pizza enough for everyone in the world. Who knew pizza was another world for peace? Hmmm... Pizza Hut ambassadors? It is interesting to be talking about how alike we are but how special at the same time.
I get so busy sometimes that I forget to remind myself about my specialness. I have a special way of reading. I change my voice and movements to match the story. I have a special talent for talking to all sorts of people. I have a special way of looking at the world. I have a special voice and brain that can remember all sorts of weird and interesting facts. Did you know you can not sneeze with your eyes open? Or that nothing rhymes with orange?
Good night and enjoy the coolness of me and of you.
It took a bit of fiddling but he tested it three or four times and my car didn't leak. Holy Hannah! I don't know if it will hold but it did make me feel slightly (begrudingly) better about the company.
I have to remember C and his lesson of do the solution. I hear the same thing day in and day out. And they are just like me. I just wanted a solution. It takes a bit to get there but it can be done.
I also got to do a storytime today. My second in the last two weeks. Trust me, after months of nada, this is like butter.... : P I really enjoyed it and the kids seemed to as well. We talked a bit about Black History Month. And peace. Todd Par has a book called the Peace Book. He talks about what peace is... you know peace is hugging a friend or keeping the streets clean or pizza enough for everyone in the world. Who knew pizza was another world for peace? Hmmm... Pizza Hut ambassadors? It is interesting to be talking about how alike we are but how special at the same time.
I get so busy sometimes that I forget to remind myself about my specialness. I have a special way of reading. I change my voice and movements to match the story. I have a special talent for talking to all sorts of people. I have a special way of looking at the world. I have a special voice and brain that can remember all sorts of weird and interesting facts. Did you know you can not sneeze with your eyes open? Or that nothing rhymes with orange?
Good night and enjoy the coolness of me and of you.
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Despise, Hate or Frustated
I can't decide which word fits how I feel about SAG. My back window was broken totally on December 31st. I went with the company that the insurance guys went with. Well, tomorrow will be the third time this month that they are coming to fix my car. The seal isn't right. When it gets wet, it drips all into the trunk.
We had a heavy rain last night and I came out to a trunk half covered in half an inch of water. I took off part of this morning to go get a cover that I could put on the car. See, everyone I called said that they couldn't fix it today because of the rain. But had it not rained, I wouldn't have known that there was still a problem. I feel Noah-ish today. It is all about the flood. I just have to keep telling myself that no rain means no rainbows. Even though today I feel a bit drowned in trouble and sorrow.
We had a heavy rain last night and I came out to a trunk half covered in half an inch of water. I took off part of this morning to go get a cover that I could put on the car. See, everyone I called said that they couldn't fix it today because of the rain. But had it not rained, I wouldn't have known that there was still a problem. I feel Noah-ish today. It is all about the flood. I just have to keep telling myself that no rain means no rainbows. Even though today I feel a bit drowned in trouble and sorrow.
Good day and remember rainbows.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Retirement Ready
I did something today that smacks me sideways with its adultness.
I set up an IRA. I have been pondering on it for a bit. I haven't had any plan for retirement until now. I haven't really thought about it.
It is the future. I think of it as the Future. As it is this island out in the Pacific somewhere that I will eventually maybe end up on. Right now I am thinking of the omlette I had for dinner just about 30 minutes ago. Not my life in 30 years. I look at it the same way I do public speaking. That it will never happen. : ) They couldn't possible want me to speak. Oh no, it's happening and I know I planned but it could never be enough.
The only future I see right now and have seen ever is B. I see us two white haired fools. Him still hugging me just as he does now and me teasing him just as I do now.
He may have to go away in mid summer. For a week. His boss volunteered him for the mission of going to another district office and checking over their work. I asked him to put in for Washington DC. He wants me to come with. And I want to come with. I haven't been away from him since we started living together.
Oh and speaking of away, it is planned. We are cruising again in February. YAY! Major major YAY! We are both looking forward to it as an anniversary thing. I had hoped that we would be able and we are going to the Bahamas again. I am hoping this can become our February thing. Just because we both enjoy it so much.
Good night and look forward.
I set up an IRA. I have been pondering on it for a bit. I haven't had any plan for retirement until now. I haven't really thought about it.
It is the future. I think of it as the Future. As it is this island out in the Pacific somewhere that I will eventually maybe end up on. Right now I am thinking of the omlette I had for dinner just about 30 minutes ago. Not my life in 30 years. I look at it the same way I do public speaking. That it will never happen. : ) They couldn't possible want me to speak. Oh no, it's happening and I know I planned but it could never be enough.
The only future I see right now and have seen ever is B. I see us two white haired fools. Him still hugging me just as he does now and me teasing him just as I do now.
He may have to go away in mid summer. For a week. His boss volunteered him for the mission of going to another district office and checking over their work. I asked him to put in for Washington DC. He wants me to come with. And I want to come with. I haven't been away from him since we started living together.
Oh and speaking of away, it is planned. We are cruising again in February. YAY! Major major YAY! We are both looking forward to it as an anniversary thing. I had hoped that we would be able and we are going to the Bahamas again. I am hoping this can become our February thing. Just because we both enjoy it so much.
Good night and look forward.
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Dream a little Dream
So last night as I was almost falling asleep, I was still talking. I do that a lot. Once when I was sleep talking, I told B. that I wanted to live in a monkey house. Not a house full of monkeys but one shaped like a huge monkey. I don't have any idea of where that came from.
Last night, B reminded me of it again and said that it didn't have to be made of monkeys. For some odd reason, that comment set me just a-gigglin' like crazy. I laughed harder when I heard myself and even harder still when I could feel him laughing beside me. LMAO doesn't justify this giggle fest.
I did finally get to sleep afterwards. I dreamed that I was in Tokoyo. I was wandering around the city center which apparently I was very familiar with. I realized that I was graduating (with what I still don't know). But the graduation gown I had on was white with gold lettering and only covered my shoulders like a small cape. I was walking through a beautiful garden filled with pink and white flowers and then I was walking through this cloud to a subway station. I didn't know where I was. I got on one of the subway cars and we made our way down to the ground. We would circle lower and lower like an airplane descent and just when I would let go of the breath I was holding it would plummet like on a roller coaster. The older Japanese couple sitting across from me watching me intently and would smile slightly when I would squeak and hold tight during the roller coaster part.
Very Eveish.
Good night and no more sushi before bed : P
Last night, B reminded me of it again and said that it didn't have to be made of monkeys. For some odd reason, that comment set me just a-gigglin' like crazy. I laughed harder when I heard myself and even harder still when I could feel him laughing beside me. LMAO doesn't justify this giggle fest.
I did finally get to sleep afterwards. I dreamed that I was in Tokoyo. I was wandering around the city center which apparently I was very familiar with. I realized that I was graduating (with what I still don't know). But the graduation gown I had on was white with gold lettering and only covered my shoulders like a small cape. I was walking through a beautiful garden filled with pink and white flowers and then I was walking through this cloud to a subway station. I didn't know where I was. I got on one of the subway cars and we made our way down to the ground. We would circle lower and lower like an airplane descent and just when I would let go of the breath I was holding it would plummet like on a roller coaster. The older Japanese couple sitting across from me watching me intently and would smile slightly when I would squeak and hold tight during the roller coaster part.
Very Eveish.
Good night and no more sushi before bed : P
Friday, January 09, 2009
Feeling Better
It has been one thing after another. Between being sick, getting glass broke, getting sick again, having to fight through crazy people with a detour, and being fussed at by neighbors, it has not started off as a good year.
But happy notes are still around. B is still wonderful. T and I are working on taking a class on Thursdays. Floral arranging. It looked pretty cool and anything I can do to be creative is a good thing. Work has been good too. Now that the holidays are over and I finally am feeling good, I feel like actually doing work. I am looking into asking an Asian Alliance group to do a presentation about Asia and the Lunar New Year. Plus I am more than halfway done with my weeding of the children's non-fiction. It has taken a while but I am plugging away at it little by little.
I took H out to lunch the other day to celebrate her finishing her certification for nails and skin care. Her official title is a long word I can't remember. It was really nice sitting down with her. I am glad she is my sister. We ate at a new restaurant (well, for me) Five Guys Burgers and Fries. It was good.
I have already begun to look at apartments online. I am definitely ready to move. I know that there are two things I need to do before that. I am ready for more windows for one. I miss windows. We are in a condo with windows on the front and back but are sandwiched between two other units. Oh well. May needs to come soon.
Good day and be well.
But happy notes are still around. B is still wonderful. T and I are working on taking a class on Thursdays. Floral arranging. It looked pretty cool and anything I can do to be creative is a good thing. Work has been good too. Now that the holidays are over and I finally am feeling good, I feel like actually doing work. I am looking into asking an Asian Alliance group to do a presentation about Asia and the Lunar New Year. Plus I am more than halfway done with my weeding of the children's non-fiction. It has taken a while but I am plugging away at it little by little.
I took H out to lunch the other day to celebrate her finishing her certification for nails and skin care. Her official title is a long word I can't remember. It was really nice sitting down with her. I am glad she is my sister. We ate at a new restaurant (well, for me) Five Guys Burgers and Fries. It was good.
I have already begun to look at apartments online. I am definitely ready to move. I know that there are two things I need to do before that. I am ready for more windows for one. I miss windows. We are in a condo with windows on the front and back but are sandwiched between two other units. Oh well. May needs to come soon.
Good day and be well.
Friday, January 02, 2009
A difference in 18 hours
I thought it was ice. I thought it had gotten cold enough to ice over my car's back windshield.
Then I got closer. It wasn't ice. My back windshield was shattered. I drove it home at 6 pm and at 12 noon the next day as we were going out to leave to go to lunch, I saw the damage. Something or someone has damaged my car. It was so bad that we closed the doors, the window started to almost buckle.
I was a bit shocked to say the least. But B, T and myself went out to lunch. And then home again to call the insurance. I have never called before. Insurance is one of those things you have and hope never to use.
There is no clue as to how it happened. Firecrackers, bullet, hammer... it could be any or none at all. It was definitely something with force behind it. It left a hole in the window and broke a hole in the plastic piece of the backseat. I hope when the guys come out to fix it to have a better idea. I personally think it was someone with a huge Hello Kitty hate : )
And on the positive side, I'd rather my car be smashed than me or mine. Plus I get to ride with Mark for the next day or so. More time with hubby is always a positive.
Good day and watch out.
Then I got closer. It wasn't ice. My back windshield was shattered. I drove it home at 6 pm and at 12 noon the next day as we were going out to leave to go to lunch, I saw the damage. Something or someone has damaged my car. It was so bad that we closed the doors, the window started to almost buckle.
I was a bit shocked to say the least. But B, T and myself went out to lunch. And then home again to call the insurance. I have never called before. Insurance is one of those things you have and hope never to use.
There is no clue as to how it happened. Firecrackers, bullet, hammer... it could be any or none at all. It was definitely something with force behind it. It left a hole in the window and broke a hole in the plastic piece of the backseat. I hope when the guys come out to fix it to have a better idea. I personally think it was someone with a huge Hello Kitty hate : )
And on the positive side, I'd rather my car be smashed than me or mine. Plus I get to ride with Mark for the next day or so. More time with hubby is always a positive.
Good day and watch out.
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